ʙᴀᴅᴍᴀɴ ᴀ ᴍɪ ᴛʏᴘᴇ

Illusion

Lamáya POV
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"Zyairie please don't go ,"

"Lamáya weh mi fi stay fah eh,!"

"Zyairie please,"

"Lamáya I want kids and you can't give me any,"

Falling to the ground I cried as zyairie packed his things

"Zyairie please nuh I need you," I cried as he sighs

"Mi sorry," he says walking out as I run behind him

"Zyairie,!" I shout as he gets in the car

I hold onto the door as he sighs

"Lamáya leggo off mi car door lamáya," he says calmly

"Zyairie doh leave mi please mi need yuh mi cya do dis without yuh,!" I shout as he grabs the door swinging it making me fall to the ground

The fall making my hand scrape the concrete I look at my hand blood pouring from the slice I got from a broken glass

I thought zyairie would check on me but instead he closes the car door driving out as I watch sadly

He left

He really left

After he promised to never leave me he left

I sit on the floor crying

He really left this time and he's never coming back

"He left," I whisper to myself

I get up hopping going Inside my knee is bleeding so is my palm

What did I do wrong? I tried I really did I even started the plan the doctor said to make myself fertile again so I could get pregnant to build our family

But It wasn't enough I really wasn't

After everything I went through trying to make us work

The treatment made me lose weight and my skin constantly broke out

I endure so much yet he couldn't even stay with me through everything

God why is this happening to me?

All I ever wanted was to have kids and I could but because of me losing 'our' child it made me infertile and he was the one who suggested that we tried other ways to make me fertile again

In the midst of all of this he chooses to leave me

Why?

I tried didn't I why was it not enough

I cried and prayed to God day and night to make me heal and grow my womb again so I could create life

I did everything because of him

I tried because of him

He came into my life to make me better

If he really had love me he wouldn't have left me because I can't have kids

When in reality he made me like this...if I wasn't pregnant with his child I would have been fertile and healthy

It hurts so much knowing that we've spent over two years together just for him to leave me at my lowest

When he brought me there

I'm so tired mentally and physically emotionally I'm drained

I just wish I wasn't here I just want to die

Nobody cares about me nobody loves me I'm in this world alone

It just breaks my heart knowing that zyairie doesn't love me anymore everything he said was an illusion