Toxic

Chapter Eleven

(Rose in MM, Reagan's mother)
Rose, Reagan

I held London on my legs as they bounced back and forth, while sitting on our back porch. The rain that dropped heavily in front of me told a lot, along with the black dress that coveted my body. It all let me know this was real, my brother had been killed.

I still keep thinking to myself who could do something like this, and who would end my brothers life but nothing ever came back too me. It was as if I was numb, numb to the fact I wouldn't see my brother again. All I would see is his name posted on his grave.

London started to push her hand out to get some of the water in her hands making me smile briefly, and get up so I could head back into the house.

It was only our immediate family at home, and the first to show up in my face was the only one I would allow, Chase.

She grabbed a cheery London out of my hands and held her in her arms before letting her go to walk off. She looked no different than me, with a simple black dress on that stopped above her knees with her bare feet.

"You okay, Reagan?"

I nodded my head even though I wasn't feeling good and I wasn't up for talking. We had just left my brothers funeral and looking at his cold and dead eyes over and over again in my head, made me want to cry.

"I'm okay, I just want to go to sleep if you don't mind," I said about to walk off until she grabbed my arm, I looked at her as she bit her lip. "I think you should go talk to your mom and dad and tell them your alright. Their really worried about you."

I rolled my eyes because they had really sucked Chase into their lies and bullshit. They weren't worried about me, nor my brother who had just died, all they cared about was money. I was convinced and they could shove their years up their ass.

"I bet, where are they?"
I questioned.

"In the den, and your mother is bawling so please be calm about everything Reagan."

I really wanted to know why she was acting like this and my mother treated her like shit on a daily basis. I  decided to keep my mouth shut though and suck up whatever hatred I had for the both of them in my heart.

    Walking into our den, I witnessed my father trying to calm my mom down by rubbing her back as she cried, it almost made me believe she was really sincere. Almost, but I still believed they only cared for Karmelo because of his love for the business.

    My mom looked at me and I heard her sniffle as I looked at her baggy eyes she touched the empty spot next to her on the brown leather couch.

    "Come sit with me please baby," she spoke softly and I was about to tell her I didn't want too but my father had looked at me, making me sit next to the one who gave me birth.

     She wrapped her arms around me and kissed my cheek. "You know momma loves you right?"

    I nodded my head even though I wasn't completely sure with her statement and the reason she was asking me this in the first place. In all honesty, I only saw my parents as using us for work and nothing more or less, they didn't really want us for love or sentimental reasons, or just because we were their children. They wanted us to carry on the legacy of this drug business.

     
        "Well, we wanted to let you know that, that since Melo passed away, your second to the throne of the family business."

    I stood up immediately pushing her hands off of me and building with anger. I always knew that their intentions were nothing but for the money, nothing else. And I couldn't believe it, now basically hearing them saying it to me in words, instead of it just being my own thoughts, it was the truth and it hit me like hard brick.

     I was so angry that I couldn't control myself. It brought back memories, it brought back old times with Karmelo, and it brought up so much hurt.

     "Get that little bitch out of here, now, Karmelo, and I'm not playing with you," I heard my mother say as my brother pushed me out of the room and outside.

      "You need to calm down Reagan, calm down for you do some more stupid shit alright?"

    I rolled my eyes pushing him into his chest as tears fell from my face.

    "Don't ever tell me to calm down Melo. Don't tell me to calm down when you'll be just as mad as me if you ain't get yo full cut!"

     He held my arms up stopping me from moving and hitting him, and looked me into my dark brown eyes making me want to wipe my tears.

    "Don't tell me what I'll do or what I wouldn't do, alright. The same shit that just happened to you, than happened too all is before so calm yo ass down for a seco--"

    I shrugged my shoulders and bussed out in tears making him bring me into a hug. I didn't care about what everybody else then been through with my moms, I'm not my brothers or anyone else. I'm me. I deserve all of my money rather I'm new to killing or not. I deserve my money. I earned it and my mom had shown me how dirty she was for the first time in this business and I didn't know if I could handle it. I told my brother that.

   He kissed my cheek and rubbed my tears as I sat on his lap with my arms around his neck and my head in his shoulder with my eyes closed. This was calming me down.

    "I need to see you, I need to see your eyes little sis," he paused and I raised my head up to look at him. "You can't let ma or nobody else get you to that point again were you giving up. Just because you a female and you got tears for any and everybody don't make you a sucker. You my sister, you strong, don't forget that, I'm running through you, and we running through each other. You hear me?"

    I nodded my head and smiled.
"Yeah, I heard you Melo."

      I continued to punch and slap my mother until I was being pulled off of her by my father as he pushed me to the ground. It didn't surprise me though, as I stood back up with Kendrick behind me.

   Daddy looked at me and shook his head and turned back to our mother asking her was she okay as Kendrick walked up to mama to see if she was okay as I rolled my eyes.

    "I can't believe you Kendrick, I can believe daddy, but you, you really running up to her instead of me?"

   He shook his head.
"That's not even the case Reagan. She's hurt and you attacked her."

    "I attacked her because she only wants us for her benefit, that's why she wanted Melo. They don't even want us Kendrick but you over here sucking up to them and kissing they ass. You know what, I'm out of here, and don't call me Kendrick, don't none of y'll call me."

   I walked out of the room and knew because I didn't hear my mothers voice I had left her unconscious but I didn't care, what's done is done, and I was about to leave. I hope she was dead.