Waves Of Thought

THOUGHTS

Some days my thoughts attack me
I will be happy going about my day
And then,
My thoughts carry me away
Remember when you lied
Remember when you failed
Remember no one likes you
Remember that you're worthless
Remember that you're not enough
Remember, remember, remember, remember.
These thoughts attack me tearing me down
I try to escape them
I try to run as fast I can
I try to stop them
But I'm being drowned by these thoughts
They plague me
They won't leave me
They stay until I'm left feeling broken
Feeling used
Feeling as though all I am is just my past mistakes
Feeling as though I'm not good enough
I tried to fight them but fail
They invade my mind
Adding to the ever growing list titled:
Reasons why I hate myself
These thoughts have made me a prisoner to my own mind
And I'm not sure how much longer I can keep fighting them
Because maybe I believe they're right
And maybe I just want give up
And give in to all these thoughts.