15 Steps to Move On by Mitty Chan

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NW: When i met you

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" there i was....an empty piece of a shell..just minding my own world, without even knowing, what love and life were all about..." nakatitig la'ng ako sakanya habang iniistrum niya ang gitara niya habang kumakanta, napakabilis ng tibok ng puso ko, pakiramdam ko anytime sasabog ito, wala akong mapaglagyan ng kilig ko

"then you came...you brought me out of this shell , you gave the world to me...and before i knew there i was so in love with you~~~" pakiramdam ko ginawa ang kantang to para samin, i love the meaning of the song, all my life akala ko hinding-hindi ko na mararanasan ang pagmamahal na ganito, but he proved me wrong, everytime i look at his eyes, i saw how much i mean to him, how much he love and cherish me, pakiramdam ko wala na akong ibang mahihiling pa, i just want to be with this man forever in thick and thins, ang dami ko nanamang sinasabi na paniguradong hindi nanaman niya malalaman, i adore and love him silently, hindi ako showy na tao but God knows how much i love and appreciate everything about him, how i picture my future with him and how i always brag him to everyone without him knowing, alam niyang napakamahiyain at palalihim kong tao, i told him from the very start what personality i has and he shouldn't misunderstand it, sinabi niyang tanggap niya lahat ng mayroon ako at wala akong dapat baguhin dito, hindi ko alam kung anong ginawa ko para bigyan ako ng ganitong taong mamahalin ako ng higit pa sa pagmamahal ko sa sarili ko

i kissed him on the cheeks while he continue singing

"you gave me a reasons for my being...and i love what i'm feeling .. you gave me a meaning to my life...yes i gone beyond existing...and it all began..when i met you..." hindi ko namalayang umiiyak na pala ako, hindi ko pa ito mapapansin kung hindi niya pinunasan ang pisngi ko

"love naman" ang nahihiyang saad ko

" ba't ka umiiyak? nakakawala ng angas 'yan" biro nito

"gago" saad ko dito, damn... i love this man so much, na hindi ko na alam ang mangyayari saakin kapag nawala siya

"i love you" nagulat siya sa sinabi ko, maski ako nagulat din sa mga inaasta ko lately, i've known my self for being so distant at hirap na hirap akong mag-express maski sa mga simpleng bagay la'ng na nararamdaman ko, but... because of him, i slowly get out of my own shell

"ayaw mo ba?..." ang nag-aalangang tanong ko dito, may mali ba akong sinabi? natahimik kasi siya, nagulat ako nang bigla niya akong hagkan

"i love you! i love you more, Love! i will love you forever, hindi la'ng ako sanay na ikaw ang unang nagsasabi niyan" he said truthfully, i hugged him back, it was because of you, love. i was trying so hard to give you my best and overcome my past, i will do everything for you.

everytime i remember how you badly treated in your past, that gives me more strength to be better in each day, i'll be the best for you, i promise that. i leaned closer to him and pushed my lips against his.

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i took my day off advance for a day, binili ko lahat ng kailangan ko para sa lulutuhin ko, i came three hours early before he arrive home, naabutan kong paalis ang lola niya, sinabi ko ditong balak kong sopresahin ang apo niya, natawa naman ito sa kakornihan ko, nakakahiya ,nagpaalam na rin kaagad siya dahil may pupuntahan pa raw siya, i browse how to perfectly cook a medium rare steak, pare-parehas la'ng ang itsura ng lahat ng pinanood ko, lahat sila mukhang hilaw sa loob! stress na stress ako kung tama ba ang pinaggagawa ko, okay 3 minutes daw per side, hindi ba mahihilaw 'to?! gawin ko kayang 10 minutes? ah bahala na.