The One You Shouldn't Have Let Go [Douma x Modern reader]

Shattered Mirrors of the Past

     "What is with those scars?"

TW ⚠️
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I sat there for a minute before answering

"What sc-" I was cut off when he grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer

"Don't lie , we've already talked about lying haven't we?" Douma spoke in a series tone

I try to pull myself away but he won't let go

"Do you understand?" He ask and I nodded

"Y-yes!" I said and he let go

I took my wrist in my hand

I took second to look at the scars , I could only bring myself I sigh as memories of the past flow into me

I sigh and look up at him

"I was young , and going through a lot at the time...." I started , my voice was low

Suddenly his aura changed X his presence wasn't so heavy as usual

He put a hand to my shoulder

"You can tell me anything my dear" he says ,

And for once his hands aren't cold with murder , yet for some reason they are warm with.....love

"I used to hurt myself....."I blurted out , and no matter how many times I tell myself or others I have no problem speaking of it , when it really comes down to it

.....speaking of it hurts

"Oh de-" I cut him off

"I know it's distasteful! But please humor me!" I frantically asked

Tears were so close to spilling , yet they were so far away

Douma sighs

"A battle with yourself is not distasteful, plus I think your scars are beautiful, they make you , you" he speaks

My eyes widen , what I try to tell myself every night is what he tells me so easily

"No matter what you've been through , it will be alright" he spoke

Once he spoke those words my heart ached and my stomach pained

My eyes and head tilt down as tears flow down my face

"No , you - you don't understand!!" I yelled

"The nights I had to stay up and bear the burden of alcohol and of loss!!" I started , I took a deep breath

"No one , and I mean no one will ever understand what it was like standing in front of my younger siblings protecting them from a demon of a father we have " I spoke softly

Douma grabs my chin gently and makes me look at him once again

I stead of being met with angry or controlling eyes , this I was met with eyes of concern and care

He spoke softly "the abuse you suffered and the burden you took on will not taint your heart in any way" he spoke

Those were the words I needed to hear

The words not of pity , but of understanding , and gentleness

For a long while I forgot that Douma could never really mean any of it

He didn't know what it meant to live someone , he didn't know what it meant to protect your family

He doesn't know what true loss is , he could never understand

But yet , as I sit there looking into his eyes

All I see is understanding and emphatic tears

Tears , from Douma , how wonderful

For a second I felt a bond , I small string on a bond holding us together, a small small string holding two people together by sheer will power

Will power that wont be enough......

I pulled away wiping my tears , that had been the only time Douma was ever gentle with me

I wonders if I'd ever get to experience gentle Douma again

And if so how long till I'd experience that?

He only smiles

"I'm so glad we got to spend so much time together!!!" He said with excitement

I smiled at this and nodded
"Yeah i guess" I say

I look around , the one light air was replaced with the oh so familiar heaviness

It rooted itself into my body , and I hated it with every fiber in my body

The feeling of the light air I knew would not last long

I mean it's Douma so what the hell

I looked at my bed then him

"I think I'll take a nap" I say and he nods

I go to get up and so does he but as I walk away he hands me white bandages

"In case you ever want to use them"

I nodded as he walked out

{{Doumas POV}}

I walked down the hallway to my room with a object in my hands

As much as I wish I can make those scars go away my dear , I cannot erase what's already healed....

{{your POV }}

I layed down as sleep overtakes my body

A part of me wants to go home , but another part of me finds this place so peaceful.......

At that thought I came to realize that peace would no remain for long

Though peace cannot remain forever , because I'm a liar , and I'm not from this world and soon he will find out.....

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Holaaaaa

So low and behold I got this chapter out!!!

So this is my last one for today , I will publish again tomorrow evening

Again sorry for a short chapter like I said shit is starting to be real!!!

[hint hint]

What do you think the object Douma for ahold of is???

Do you think it's important to the story???

Well you'll find out next chapter !!!

I hope you all enjoyyyyyy