The One You Shouldn't Have Let Go [Douma x Modern reader]

Reality & Fiction

I knew that I was stuck somewhere between two different universes , along the line I came to the assumption that I shouldn't make a move that can permanently alter this universe

Altering universes is a dangerous game to play and I want none of it

And I realize if I save Kotoha and she doesn't die

Inosuke won't become a demon slayer

In turn means

Douma won't die

I only realize now that I have to let it happen , as much as I don't like to let preventable things happen

This is the time where I have to control myself

I can't risk getting me and Tenze caught

Tenze

What would he even do?

He has no family to go home to , he has no friends outside of the temple

Where would he go?

I can't just take him with me

I let my thoughts consume me for a little bit before I noticed Kotoha standing in front of me

Kotoha once she knew I knew she was there sat in front of me on the futon

"You seem deep in thought y/n , what's the matter?" She asks I just Shake my head

If I tell her the truth it'll only confuse her more

"It's nothing Kotoha" I say with a small smile , Kotoha sighs

"You know....."she starts

"Hm?"

"You can tell me if something from your past is nagging at you"she speaks softly

Though that wasn't what I was thinking about a few minutes ago , I was definitely thinking about it now

If I went back

I would deal with the endless cycle of abuse

And that i did not want

But I have to make the best of what I have

And this place is not what I have

This place is not my home

This place is not my world

I only sigh

"You know you can tell me , I'm sure lord Douma wouldn't mind me knowing how he helped such a fine young lady" she spoke

Lord Douma?? She has never called him that before

Shaking the thought off I sigh

I knew I'd have to make it up

But

Fake it till you make it I guess

"Well when I was younger my parents wernt really happy with each other so they kinda turned on each other , the violence kinda turned to me and my brother and sister , from then the abuse was everyday , not every day was physical though " I start

But this time I felt no tears , which was weird cause normally when I talk about it to Douma I shed a few tears but now

Not a single tear fell from my eyes

"Oh you poor thing!" She yells embracing me

"From there I made a really selfish decision...." I said and she nodded