The One You Shouldn't Have Let Go [Douma x Modern reader]

The Truth

I sat outside the room where Douma would see his worshipers who would pray to him

Why do they pray for him? Why do they put there trust in him?

Those questions are questions I ask a lot

But of course they can't be answered

Douma soon finished up , from there I came in

Come to think about it I don't know where in the damn timeline I'm in , rengoku might not even be a damn hashira!!

That thought clouded my mind , had I confined in someone who couldn't help me??

Douma noticed my thoughtful expression and smiles

"What on your mind dear?" He asks in that annoying voice of his , some days it didn't annoy me to hear his voice , other days it did

"Nothin , just thinking about what to teach you next about my culture" I said , it wasn't a complete lie

I just wanted to know what I wanted to teach him so that on a day I feel like I can talk to him without being a bitch I can actually teach him something

He nods "ah yes! I can't wait to see what new things about your culture I can learn!" He said happily

Or as happy as someone such like himself can get

I only nodded "yeah , there isn't all that much to my culture, mostly because I have different religious beliefs than my family" I explain

I feel like I'm over sharing , but in a way I've never spoken to anyone about my religious beliefs

I thought that I could be nice to talk to him about it but , he is seen as a god , we was raised to think he is a god

And he has his own opinions and I feel like if I say something he sorely disagrees with I'll be in for a lecture

But as always I speak before thinking and Douma gets curious

"What do you mean??" He asks

"What would you like me to explain" I say and he tilts his head pausing to think

"Explain everything you just said "he says

Wow so helpful

"Well I don't believe in the same things as my family " I start

"So if you say that what religion is your family??" He asks I nod for a minute

"Their catholic, pretty sure at least , I don't talk to them enough to know" I stated and he nodded

"So then what religious belief do you partake in??" He asked I smiled nervously

I get insulted a lot on this part of my life

"Well it's hard to explain...."I hesitated, if I told him what people really thought of me , would that change the way he looks at me

I mean he probably already planned on doing something with me

I don't know what it might be but to hell with it

"It's quite alright , you won't be judged here" he says , a small smile came to my face

I sweat dripped though "well a lot of people say I live like a Jewish person" I say with nervous laughter

Douma tilts his head

"But if you were Jewish you wouldn't be able to eat half the meals provided..." Douma said but paused in thought

"Unless... you've just been taking the meals without saying anything, you know I'm more than willing to compromise for you , all you gotta do is tell me" he speaks with a smile

Does this guy really think I'm actually Jewish!?

"No no no I'm not Jewish , I don't believe anything the Jews believe, well at least most of it" I say as Douma nods

"Well if a meal ever needs to be changed to fit any sort of belief then tell me" he says happily

I nod

"It's fine "I just normally don't eat pig meat for the month of April" I say and Douma tilts his head

"Why only one month out of the whole year?" He asks

To be honest I don't like pig meat , so I decided to pick one month to eat pig meat

But I don't exactly know how to explain that to Douma

"It's just personal preference " i say with a small smile and he nods

"On the talk of personal preferences , I remember telling you I wouldn't ask why you lied about speaking English, as I assumed it was personal" he started

This made my heart drop , I knew something was off , the way his smile changed in the slightest was scary

Had he found out I knew he hurt people??

God knew what he found out

"Ah yeah I-I remember" I say , I curse at myself for my anxious stutter

"You should , I said I would t press on any further about it , but I have to now " he states

"You know you can be truthful with me , have I ever hurt you because of your truths?" He asks

I Shake my head as he smiles

"So why lie after you said you wouldn't ? " he asked

"What??" I ask trying to play dumb

"That act isn't going to work anymore, I really want to know what possesses you to lie to my face in such ways as your true identity...." He says

I pause before my breath gets caught in my throat

That's , that's my ID

I glared a little bit

"After reading what was on this you made a lot more sense to me , but still you never said anything about being 400 years from the future y/n....." he states slowly

He showed me the ID that was held so I can see

He knows.... I'm so fucked!!!

My breath starts to pick up as anxiety rails through me

"We promised no more lies y/n...... so why do you make it so difficult to reason with you?" He asks his once skills persona faded as a wave of his anger came towards me

He might have been talking nicely but I can feel the poison in his voice

"So I'll give you one chance to explain yourself " he says

"Make the best of the time I'm giving you to do so y/n...." He says darkly

I decide the best thing to do is to tell the truth

"Alright then , I'll tell you everything"

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Douma sat there the whole time staying still as I explained that I'm born 400 years in the future

He didn't talk at all , he asked no questions, he just sat and listened

I looked down

This was the only time I hadn't been forced to look at him while talking

I told him everything

Almost everything.....

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Hellooooo

I didnt post yesterday because I was super tired from my school sports and I fell asleep before I could start this chapter

So I apologize for that!!

But i hope you all enjoyyyyy