blackpink x femreader oneshots

cant look her in the eye (jennie)

  Im at home, in my room, under the covers scrolling through my phone when i saw an instagram notification.
'jennierubyjane just shared a post.' i stare at it for a second, head tilting in confusion.
now? its 8:30.i click on it. its photos of her, lisa, chaeyoung and jisoo. my..friends? they're all laughing, smiling hugging each other. from the dim light i can see their at a movie theater. the post is captioned: 'with the besties.'  i feel sick. my brows furrow as i stare at it. the hurt takes some time to sink in. oh. they went..without me? again? god.
  Jennie, lisa, chaeyoung and jisoo, they're my friends. like, my clique. some of us are closer to one another but we usually always hang out together. but i think maybe im closest to jennie. on some days we would stay up just to text each other. she'd tell me about her problems. id help fix them.

y/n/n ⛄️: why are we awake its 1:14am we hav school tomorrwa 
rubyjane 💩: idk i just can't sleep. you're funny.
also please fix your english.
uhm also i think jisoo might be mad at me or something
y/n/n ⛄️: ikr im the funneist
wait what tell me more about jisoo.
ugh. the problem is that the four of them were friends first so sometimes im the floater friend. i just wished they'd like me more. maybe im not funny enough. maybe jennie doesn't think im funny enough.
  its depressing, really. i love jennie so much it actually hurts.
  its just shitty because no matter what happens i still like her. shes still interesting and funny. shes still perfect in every fucking way. i cant help but want to be closer to her all the damn time. Even though shes so important to me, im probably just another friend that she thinks is alright.
  i blink down at my phone and flip through the photos again, even though ive done that a million times. i double tap the screen, liking the post. the last thing i see before shutting it off and going to bed is their happy smiling faces. i fall back onto the bed, pressing my arm to my eyes, wiping the tears. everything is alright.

im in school, i put on my black headphones. i  just hope my music can drown out the dull ache in my heart.i just want jennie. my head is down and my y/h/c hair falls to slightly hide my face. i shut my locker door and look up. my friends are not far away.
they're looking at me with worried eyes.i bite my lip i wave a small wave as i attempt to  slip by. but jennie reaches out to grab onto my shoulder before i do.

"We're sorry y/n!"
"We didn't really know if you'd want to come."
"We thought you had plans."
"Next time.We'll see next time."
The girls rush. But i don't really pay attention to who says what. I force a smile as i look directly into jennies eyes. She looks nervous.
I look at lisa jisoo and chaeyoung. I love them too.  My heart is cracking. I want to cry.

"Sorry for what? Im fine. Really."
I shuffle my feet and look down at the black converse im wearing. I hike my backpack higher onto my shoulders. I look down because i can already feel tears slipping down my face. I dont want them to see but i think they already have.
Jennie reaches out to hold my hand. Her hand is warm.  She's wearing a few rings.
"Oh y/n." She cooes.
I pull my hand away from hers.

"I said im fine." I snap.
jennie looks startled. i didn't mean to raise my voice. I swallow and shake my head .i rush away as quick as i can. I can't look her in the eye right now.

  God. life is so fucking lonely without friends. Or jennie.I might be making a big deal out of this but they are literally all i have. Everyone thinks im weird. My father died of cancer and my mother turned to drugs. We have money problems. I have to hide food from my mom so she won't sell it to buy more drugs. Im sad. Ive never told anyone that before.

I lock myself in a toilet cubicle and breathe heavily. This is spiraling out of control. I need to get myself under control.

  I can hear the restroom door being pushed open.
  Someone tries to open my cubicle door.