My Perfect Sight

A real Nightmare

Reginas POV

I woke up still wearing my wedding dress...

I look at the mirror and Im a total mess..

Realising this is a Real Nightmare..

I wept..

I Took my shower with a very very heavy heart.

hoping has the cold water flow I will wake up

Next to Narda..

I went out of the bathroom

As I see my bed ...

In this spot....

Is were narda slept ..

I lay my body...

As I let my tears starts to run down.

I can cry A trillion tears...

For what A real Nightmare it is.

For This sorrow never know the word end.

A knock on my door ... open my eyes again.

princess... hey, we will find her okay? thats the exact words my father utter.

I smile .. for the first time I will acknowledge this is a fake smile..

I ask dad na I need to go sa condo ni Narda..

Her lola is there .. I need to check Narda's Family..

So he let me ...

As We drive to Narda's Condo..

I hold where my heart is..

I can't feel it anymore..

The pain...

The sorrow ....

That's all in There...

I open the door and saw lola's face..

Now I can feel back my heart...

It breaks ... seeing Narda's family...

In mourning..

I want to ask..

Why are we like this?

My Narda is not dead..

but I can't say that..

I'm not the only one feeling the pain

knowing Narda's not here..

Lola berta hug me...

She is telling me I should stay strong ...

that we should stay strong ..

I said yes.. so that she won't worry about me..

I went out... because I can't take it anymore..
Staying in Narda's condo..

I went out and I saw brian

Rurnning towards me..

He hug me so tight....

And said He wants to accompany me..

I don't have the strength to argue..

So I just turn around and continue walking while he walks with me..

I found myself.. walking inside our home..

Tears fall down as I remember Narda showing me this house..

In this place we plan to build our family..
our life together..

I see this place as beautiful and perfect..

But now Its empty and dark..

Because she is not with me..

Brian came in and hug me..

He said  regina.. im here... hindi kita iiwan ha..

I look at him.. and remove his hands..

I smile and left him..

Now here I am.. standing on the bridge..

I hate this bridge...

I cried and cried...and cried...

I kneel down and cried...

Narda... pleasseeee... asan kana ba??

Brian came running to me ...

He hug me... and assure me he will not leave me..

I was about to yell at him cause he is so annoying..

But one of the rescue team approach me..

I told them pleasee pleasee tell me

You found my wife...

pleasee tell me.. you found Narda...

All I can see in their faces is dissappointment..

I look at the sky..

and curse the whole world..

Why are you giving me so much pain...

Brian hug me again...

I push him. and shout at him..

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

but he hug me tighter... and tighter..

I was so weak... I close my eyes...

And the last thing I see is the Fucking Blue skies..

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I can hear my father speaking to someone.

I open my eyes and now im in a fricking hospital..

I tried to stand up but I can't stand..

I can feel how weak my body is...

My father approach me and with him is a doctor..

I ask what Am I doing here?

The doctor speak and told me I need to rest or else my body will give up.

I close my eyes and wish my body will give up...

What's the point of life..?

I don't see it anymore ...

My dad started crying.. and he hold my hands..

telling me he can't afford to lose me too..

So I smile and told him..

I'll try.....

I put my body to bed...

I can see Narda... smiling at me..

She approach me and hold my hands

As she guide me to stand...

We walk in a field

And I can see two children

A cute liitle boy with a straight hair and

A pretty little girl with a curly hair..

Playing.. and they look so happy.

Narda smile at me and kiss me

She then run to play with them

the three of them look at me smiling..

calling me ...

"Mommy ....pleasee play with us...."

Then I open my eyes...

For what a Beautiful Dream ... It is...

be continuee...mananakit po muna ako..