Our secret. Ponyboy x Johnny [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 11

Johnnys POV

"Me neither but we'll never know unless we find out." Ponyboy said, his sentence racking through my brain.

"Pony."I said looking at him, my hand on his chest still.

"What is it?"He replied, his breathing slightly heavy. I pulled away from him, and pulled my hands into my lap, balking my fists and resting them against my thighs.

"Johnny?" Pony asked, trying to get my attention.

"I'm scared, I don't know what's going to happen, I don't want to leave you Ponyboy, I love you."My eyes started to tear up.

"Look at me." He reached over and grabbed my hands. "Johnny no matter what I'll always be with you."

"Promise?"I sniffled a bit. He squeezed my hands tightly.

"I promise Johnny, I love you."He said, he pulled me close to him. "I love you."

"I love you too."I said quietly.

"Do you want me to read to you?, I know you like that."He offered trying to distract me.

"Pony I want to go home."I said, ignoring what he said. I didn't want to go 'home' I wanted to go back the neighborhood. I wanted to be back with the gang. My home wasn't somewhere I wanted to be. I knew if I went no one would say a word to me, they wouldn't even know I was gone, let alone killed a man.

"I know, but Dal will come and get us soon, then we can go home."He kissed my cheek and gave me a forced small smile.

"What is going to happen when?"I asked him, thinking he'd know a real answer.

"Johnny I can't tell you what is exactly going to happen."He sighed. "But it was self defense, you have a chance of being let off easy."

"I hope so."It was a relief knowing I had a chance of being able to stay here with Ponyboy, and with everyone else.
"I miss Dal."

"I know, it's okay you'll see him soon."He stroked my hair, playing with it.

It was late into the night. I had no idea what time it was but it had been dark for a while. Ponyboy had fell asleep a while ago, it was quite dark and I laid that for a bit, my arms around him since it was cold. But after a while laying there, it gets boring. I stepped out the the back door, sitting in the steps and lighting a cigarette. I looked out off the hill, the moon lighting it up a bit but only making it where I could see a few miles away. I breathed in the thick smoke, lightly exhaling and seeing it leave my lungs. I wanted to leave. I wanted to go. I wanted to live my life. I regret what I did. But it was our life or his.
I heard a noise come from behind me, I jumped a bit but soon saw Ponyboy sit next to me in the steps.

"What are you doing out here Johnny?"He asked. I took another a drag of my weed.

"Couldn't sleep." I mumbled to him.

"Oh alright."He said sleepily he rested his head on my shoulder.

"Go back to sleep Pony."I smiled has his eyes fluttered shut and back open.

"No, come with me."He mumbled sleepily, his hand resting on my thigh.

"I will later."I kissed the top of his head. His eyes shut and stayed shut. I let him rest there, I finished the cigarette and lit another. I quickly finished it and gently stood up, picking up Ponyboy and bringing him into the church. I sat down on one of the benches and laid him on my chest. I stroked his hair gently.

"I love you Ponyboy."I said, knowing he couldn't hear me, I hope I never have to leave him. I smiled to myself, I love this boy.

This chapter is really short but i wanted to get one out and I want to progress this story but I need a full chapter for what's next