In Love With Mr. Doggy (Skillet Fanfic)

Chapter 38: John's Little Suicide

John's POV

I'm cold.
I'm lost.
I'm alone.

Why is this all happening? I don't deserve this! Or maybe I do? I don't know anymore!

I struggled to live without Rica for 12 years. I thought I was ready to forget her. Until she came to our concert.

Why had she come?

She told me she'll be better off without me. We weren't made for each other in the first place. Now I know why my brother despised me being a teacher. Maybe he knew that this will happen.

I sat down in a fetal position for awhile. People passed by me and they backed off, thinking I escaped from a mental hospital. Ridiculous. I got noticed a lot in public as a wrestler and now, a mental patient. Suckers.

My head won't stop hurting. I need to end this. I have to! It was me that caused this abomination to my family in the first place. Even the kids are being included. I've gotta end this cursed chain that is linking to my family.

And that chain is my LIFE.

I forced myself to get up. I headed to a shop where I can find a set of blades.

"Excuse me. Do you have any sharp blades that can cut a person so badly?" I asked a sales lady.

"Ummm... excuse me?"

"Err... not a person! An animal. Pardon me."

"Wait right here, Sir."

She disappeared to the stock room. I turned to the people buying around. They were all staring at me too.

"What are y'all looking at?" I coldly asked with my eyebrow raised up.

They quickly looked away and went on with their business. Perhaps it was the hospital gown they are all wondering about or the John cheating on Korey thing. I'm definitely sure it's the 2nd one. The saleslady didn't mind me wearing it. So... it's the cheating one.

Sir, here it is. It'll cost 500 dollars."

"That's... expensive."

"Sir, it's the sharpest knife we have around here. It's worth the price. Perfect for cutting meat."

She convinced me and I bought it. Just look at this baby. It's PERFECT! The edges are filled with pointy teeth-like things. And the point is very very VERY SHARP.

"I wonder why John is wearing a hospital gown."

I heard the saleslady whisper to her co-worker. I was wrong about her. They were both conscious of my dress and scandal.

I shook my head and left. I went to an old abandoned cabin in the woods. Surely, nobody can fins here. And yeah, I also bought a bottle of acid. It'll taste delicious.
I set the knife and acid down. But before ending my life, I've got to text my Korey.

To: Korey
Fr: John
My precious Korene,

I hope you can forgive me for everything that I had done... including 'this'. You know what I am talking about. You were right. I only married you because Rica told me to. I'm very sorry that I ruined your life. I just don't know what I'm truly feeling anymore. Is it you? Or 'her'? I know that as you read this, I am forever gone. Tell the kids I love them. I'm glad that I had you in my life. This is goodbye, Korene. I love you.

I sent the text message. Tears fell down my eyes. Without thinking twice, I grabbed the knife and slashed my thigh. It cut opened. It's so BEAUTIFUL to look at! I carved a bloody "SORRY" on my left arm. I pointed the edge of the knife on my wrist.

"Here goes nothing." I whispered to myself.

I cut deeper and deeper till I saw the crimson fluid pour out. I got the sense of satisfaction. I'm very close to the reaper. To Death. To be frank, I've always wanted to go to heaven. To meet the Lord. But now, who cares. I'm already in hell.

Just one more step: Drinking the acid. (What in the world?! Are you serious?)

I took the acid and twisted the cap. But before doing that, I spunned my head to look around the consuming darkness of the cabin. This same darkness will consume me soon. I will be in a deep slumber in hell.

Then without hesitation, I drank the acid.

"Ngh! Mmm!" I gurgled.

Oh God, it burns! This will really kill me.

And I'm glad.

Third Person's POV

The acid burned through his throat, automatically destroying his beautiful singing voice. He can feel it making its way down his stomach.

"Will Korey be there to save me? She won't be. No one will be. I'll never be able to feel the sun's warmth on my skin again.

Goodbye, sunshine.
Goodbye, world.
Goodbye, Alex and Xav.
Goodbye... my Korey." he thought as the acid continiously destroy his organs bit by bit.

As the confused man was dying, his wife recieved his message to her earlier. She was shocked and she mourned for him. But she knew it wasn't too late. She can still save him.

She called for the officers to rescue and find his husband quickly. Will they ever find him?

(A/N: John... :,( Stay tune, panheads. I won't be able to update for the next few days. School is starting here soon. I'm really nervous about high school, so wish me luck with it and... Math. Sorry if I reposted it. I forgot to put a dramatical music. Reread it if you want to. Hehehe.)