Freen&Becky (I need you more than I want to) S1

The Morning After (FREEN)

FREEN'S POV

After our steamy hot sex, we cuddled for a while. She was quiet but I could tell that she was waiting for me to start up the conversation.

I was happy. Becky didn't reject me. And on top of that, she had an orgasm. She wasn't disgusted by the idea of having sex with me. Infact she enjoyed it.

Wait what am I saying. I'm good in bed. Maybe I just touched all her trigger points that's why she liked it. Maybe she doesn't even dream of a relationship with me.

Or maybe she just didn't want to hurt my feeling and that was why she didn't turn me down. I mean we're best friends and she just didn't know how to say "NO" to me and so she just let it happen

Even if she wants it, are we going to be allowed to have such a relationship. A relationship between two girls.

I mean it turned out fine when we were acting but that was acting this is real life and it will be difficult for us to be accepted as a couple.

Maybe I should have controlled myself and not sleep with her. Now she wants us to talk. What will I say to her. I won't know how to start.

I just laid down there and forced myself to sleep so as to avoid the conversation that Becky is hoping to have with me.

I woke up very early the next day. Thank God Becky is still asleep. I hurriedly went into the bathroom and stay there for God knows how long pretending to be busy.

I waited there for long hoping that Becky would leave but after spending over an hour inside the bathroom, I came out just to find Becky still on my bed.

I didn't know what to do or what to say. I know that Becky is a persistent person. She won't leave my room until we had that conversation and so I gave up and decided to talk to her but the wrong words came out.

"Why are you still here?"

" It's morning already. Go to your room I need my privacy"

These were the words that came out of my mouth. How could I have said that to her. I literally just fucked her the previous night.

Gosh NO! This is not something I should have said to Becky. I won't even do it to a stranger but I'm doing it to Becky?

Becky is someone who breaks easily. And I'm sure what she was expecting me to say is totally the opposite of what I just said.

But I didn't know how to take it back.
I looked at her and saw the shock on her face. I tried to say something else possibly to calm her down but I could not find the words.

I decided to make her leave and take my time to think of what to say to her and how to apologize for the rubbish that I just said to her.

I signaled her to leave and I turned around pretending to look for an outfit. Becky was quiet for awhile and then she just left.

She was angry. I could tell from the sound of her footsteps. I didn't turn around but I could feel her storming out of the room.

I knew she was disappointed but what can I do Becky? I didn't know what to say. I just follow my feelings and now I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

When Becky left I just sat down on the bed still not sure of how to approach the matter with Becky. I mean if I want our friendship to continue, I can't just gaslight her. I would have to address the elephant in the room.

Becky must be very sad because of my reaction to what might have been really special to her. The Becky I know might even be crying right now.

NO! NO! NO! I can't do this to her. The night meant a lot to me also and irregardless of the reason why Becky accepted to sleep with me, she still did it with me.

She didn't initiate it. I did. So I must man up and talk to her about it. I quickly got up and picked a casual outfit, put it on and hurriedly went to Becky's room

To be continued.....

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