Freen&Becky (I need you more than I want to) S1

It has always and would ever be BECKY!!!

FREEN'S POV

I woke up with Kao by my side. She was still fast asleep and so I quietly got up from the bed and tiptoed into the bathroom trying not to wake her up.

What just happened? Did I really just did it with kAO CAMPEN?

What have I done? How will I face her after this? How can I even live with myself after what I just did?

Oh my God! I told her I liked her too. What is wrong with me? how would I take back those words?

It was just a moment of weakness but telling her that would hurt her.

I'm Becky-sexual If that's even a thing. I only love Becky. There was no one before Becky and frankly there's no one after her.

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While in the restroom, I picked up my phone and the amount of message I got were shocking.

My friends, co-stars, managers and every other person having my phone number sent me a SMS.

"Have you seen what Becky posted? Becky has gone wild? Becky just ripped off the band-aid."

Was the first message I read but I didn't want to know about what becky did again Because I thought it was another lie that Becky was feeding to her online mob.

I was in the restroom for a while when I got a knock on the door. It was Kao obviously.

Freen! Freen!! She called out but I didn't respond.

Freen! You have to come see this. It's Becky on Instagram. She continued

Fine. What has Becky done again to ruin my reputation. I don't think she can stoop lower but let me just see this video and be done with it.

I went out and grabbed Kao's phone from her hand to see what the video was all about.

I was speechless. I was shocked. I felt guilty. I felt hatred not for Becky but for myself.

Why didn't I listen? why didn't I love her? she is my baby and I never understood what she was going through.

And when she tried telling me, I lashed out at her and told her to get out of my house.

The story was posted on Instagram about three hours ago. Around the same time I was busy cheating on her with Kao.

I am a disappointment. I told her I loved her and yet while she was out there pouring out her heart, telling the public how much she loves me, I was busy fucking someone else.

She practically gave herself to be slaughtered for me but I was busy having sex with Kao.

I quickly grab my car keys and ran out of the house not minding that Kao was still there or that we just had sex.

I got in my car and started calling Becky. I called and called and called but she wouldn't answer. She wouldn't pick up the call.

Oh my God! I mess up. I cheated on Becky who have gone through alot because she loved me. She suffered in the hands of her own family because of me and all this while I was busy blaming her.

My baby has been struggling on her own without me by her side. She has been crying herself to sleep and waking up to a lonely day all because of me. While I'm here fucking someone else.

I wanted to go back home where I left her but I knew that she wouldn't be there and so I just kept on driving aimlessly.

I didn't know what hotel Becky might be at or if she'd returned home to Bangkok so I didn't know where to look.

My poor baby. I called over and over again but still no response. And so I left her a voicemail hoping that she'd listen to it and probably let us talk things out.

"Becky you mean the world to me. Most times I stay up all night thinking about you and about us.

Reminiscing about the things we used to do together, the places we always go together and the way you always made me feel.

Becky, I love you. I've always loved you and I will ever love you. I didn't know what was going on back then.

I thought you just left me and when I tried talking to you about it, you rained insults on me and so I just felt heartbroken and left.

I never knew you were hurting just like I was. I never knew You were dying to tell me everything but just couldn't.

I love you so please just let us talk things out. We won't move past this, if we don't talk about it so please! please! Please! Becky, I'm begging you, just give me a chance to see you and talk things through with you.

My guilt is killing me for leaving my baby to suffer alone. For not being able to see how much you were hurting and how much you needed me.

So please Becky just call me back so that we can talk things out."

I park my car for a while and waited to see if Becky would reply to my voice mail but still she didn't. And so I went online to know if any fan has spotted her around any hotel here in Chidlom. And luckily I saw a post about her being in OMEGA-STREAM hotel.

It was about 20 minutes drive away from where I was, so I rushed down to the hotel but the receptionist at the front desk told me that "Becky Armstrong" already Lodged out of the hotel and is headed to the airport.

And so I started driving to the airport trying to catch her before she got on her plane.

The airport was about an hour drive away from OMEGA-STREAM hotel but that is if there is no traffic. I hurriedly got back into my car and raced down to the airport.

I was driving so fast thinking about Becky that I didn't notice and drove right passed a red traffic light.

As soon as I did, my car ran into a truck and I went flipping. My car rolled over and over and over about four times and stopped and I slowly lost consciousness.

I saw life flashed right in front of me and all I could think about was how I was going to die without telling Becky how I truly feel about her.

Without letting Becky know that I'm sorry for not sticking by her side.

Without letting her know that I am not mad at her and without knowing if Becky has forgiven me or not.

I cried as I slowly saw the light leaving my eyes. I cried because of LOVE, because of BECKY.

Again LOVE made me cry but it's fine because If I was to choose, I'd choose Becky over and over again because BECKY IS LOVE, A TYPE OF LOVE THAT I'D DO ANYTHING FOR.

I believe in love and how crazy it could be. This is our journey, FREEN AND BECKY

THE END

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