Freen&Becky (I need you more than I want to) S1

Most nights I hardly sleep

BECKY'S POV

I hate Kao and I think she has ulterior motives with Freen but one thing she said during the podcast, captured my attention.

Freen and I have to resolve this issue between us. I need to talk to Freen. I'm dying everyday from heartbreak, guilt and loneliness.

These could all be resolved if I had just one matured conversation with Freen.

My mother and brother were against me going to see Freen as usual.

They know that I still loved Freen and they don't want us to be together.

They threatened me again like they did before but surprisingly, my father stood up for me.

"Becky is suffering. He said.

"Do you like how she is right now? You asked her to choose between Freen and her career threatening her that if she's in a relationship with Freen, she won't be able to appear in public because every single wrong she has done since she was a child would be exposed.

And those unmentionable crimes that could send her to prison would also be exposed.

I've never seen a parent threaten her own child as you did to Becky that day. Even her brother out of jealousy was willing to send her to prison.

Did you get Freen now David? You said you'll get her after Becky leaves her. Have you gotten Freen now?

She doesn't even know that you exist in this world. Even the little love and respect she had for you because you are Becky's brother has all been flushed down the toilet already.

Let Becky be. She has suffered enough.

This child hardly sleeps at night. Most nights, she's awake. She cries all through the night because she's helpless but you won't know because you don't care about her feeling.

Even an enemy won't be this cruel and wicked to Becky but you, who she calls her family are the ones killing her.

Why won't the both of you just allow my daughter to be happy? She has never been herself since then.

For five months now, Becky has been sad. She was a bit happy because although it was pretence, Freen was still by her side.

But since Freen announced the breakup and left Bangkok, Becky has been drying up gradually.

I won't blame Freen. She didn't know what was going on and she was heartbroken and so she left and that day the happy Becky left too.

My once cheerful daughter now hardly even puts on a smile and yet you won't let her go to Freen?

She loves Freen and you've already separated them. Just let Becky have peace by talking to Freen and probably having closure.

She's not saying that she'll get in a relationship with Freen again. She just wants to talk to Freen so let her go to Chidlom to get closure and then she'll return home."

My mother and brother were speechless after my dad's speech. They sought of reasoned with him I guess.

Or they felt guilty but either way, they allowed me go see Freen in Chidlom so I was happy.

I went to Chidlom the next day without telling Freen. I wanted to call her but I was scared that if she knew I was coming to Chidlom to talk to her she'd not let me come see her so I just travelled to see Freen in Chidlom unannounced.

There was a delay in the Bangkok airport and so I arrived late at night to Chidlom.

I was up all night thinking of how I'd talk to Freen the following day. Would she even let me into her house or listen to what I had to say?

These thoughts kept me up until the next morning. I quickly prepared early and by 8am, I had set out to go see Freen.

When I got close to her home, I told the taxi to drop me. I froze and couldn't bring myself to go see her.

I tried so hard to walk down to her house but the guilt of all I've done just kept on holding me back. For almost two hours, I was walking around Freen's house not knowing how to go knock on the front gate.

Finally, I gathered up courage and went as fast as possible to ring the doorbell before I changed my mind again.

When I rung the doorbell, my heartbeat increased. Saying that it doubled would be an understatement. I was sweating immensely and I was even feeling dizzy from being so shaken up.

The AI asked me to move into the camera so that my image would be captured for those inside the house to see. I did that and there was no response.

I waited for over thirty minutes but still no one responded and so I rung the doorbell again.

But this time even the AI did not respond. It means whoever is inside the house already saw me and doesn't want to talk to me.

I waited again for about an hour and rang the doorbell again and the AI told me to go away. Somebody inside the house was talking through the AI and so I started begging knowing fully well that the person inside the house won't even hear what I was saying.

Soon the gate opened and I walked inside in compound. I got into the sitting room and saw Mrs Anong, Freen's mother.

"What do you want Becky?"  Mrs Anong asked

"Haven't you done enough damage already? Why do you keep looking for means to destroy Freen's life? Please Becky just leave. Freen is not around right now. She didn't spend the night at home and that is why I allowed you in. But If she meets you here, it would be trouble." She continued

I tried reasoning with Mrs Anong but she couldn't be reasoned with. I tried everything I could but she wouldn't let me stay and talk to Freen.

I was even surprised to know that the day I broke up with Freen, was the day Mrs Anong accepted me to be Freen's girlfriend.

She finally agreed and I messed up. Why won't she be angry with me?

She was really furious because of the pain and humiliation her daughter had to go through because of me and so I just left hoping to return when she was calm.

On my way out of the house, Freen's car drove in. She parked the car and came out of the car alongside Kao.

"Kao again" I thought to myself but I quickly put that thought aside as Freen was my priority.

They both came down from the car and walked towards me talking and laughing. They both looked at me and walked passed me like I wasn't even there.

Freen didn't even make any facial expressions of surprise, sorrow, anger , happiness or anything related to seeing me.

Like clockwork, they both walked pass me still deep in their discussion.

I'm confused. Didn't they see me? They both looked at me before passing so there's no way that they didn't see me.

Or am I a ghost? Is that why they looked to my direction but were not even surprised that I was in Freen's house in Chidlom and just walked pass me like there was no one present there.

I was confused and getting more confused. I stood there trying to calculate what just happened and touching myself, even feeling my environment to make sure that I wasn't a ghost.

I turned around looking at them as they kept on talking and laughing as they went into the house not even turning back to look at me.

To be continued.....

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