Freen&Becky (I need you more than I want to) S1

You're my heaven

BECKY'S POV

I didn't mean to say that. I'm just really bad at expressing myself.

The wrong words came out of my mouth and now Freen won't want to talk to me ever again.

When Freen walked out of the house, my entire world came crumbling down. I love Freen, that I knew. I just didn't know that I loved her this much.

I almost collapsed watching her walk out of the house. It was like watching her leave me all over again.

I couldn't bear it. Mrs Anong just stared at me and shaked her head in disappointment before leaving the sitting room.

I sat down there like my life was over. Of course my life was over. I'm nothing without Freen.

What punishment could be worse than loosing Freen. All consequences be damned, if my mom and brother wants, they should convict me to life imprisonment, I don't care anymore.

I brought out my phone and went live on Instagram and I started spilling everything.

"Hi, this is Rebecca Patricia Armstrong. And I want to clear up everything that transpired between Freen and I.

I was already crying and rapidly, those watching my live increased.

Freen never broke up with me." I said

"I was the one who broke off our relationship. And in the most brutal way ever. I broke up with her without any reason.

Freen loved me from the bottom of her heart. She stood up for me. Sheltered me and showed me love like no one has ever done.

Yet I didn't give her any reason for our breakup. I just told her to get out of my face and slammed the door at her face.

I am my happiest self around Freen. If there's a heaven then it's with Freen.

She filled up those places in my heart that no one else can.

Freen is my everything. My life became meaningless without Freen in it.

I love you Freen. You are my everything. Life makes no sense without you.

I can't go deeply into detail about why I broke up with you but I know it happened because I was selfish.

I was threatened by those I thought would always have my back. They asked me to break up with you or I'd loose my career.

Not just my career but I might even go to prison and so I hurt you just to keep myself safe. That is really selfish of me and I'm really sorry.

The beating of my heart is a drum and It's lost and it looking for a rhythm like you Freen.

I've lost purpose in life. I never thought I could love this deep to be hurting this bad.

I'm sorry for everything Freen. For all the troubles I've caused you. Please find a place in your heart to forgive.

I went down on my knees begging Freen with tears rolling down.

You mean the world to me. Everything you do, it affects me and when we're not in good terms, I feel so empty. Since I don't have you, I'm suffering.

You're always on my mind. So many mornings I woke up confused in my dream I'll do anything I want to you. Those eyes I had the privilege to stare into.

When you smile at me. My whole world stops and stares for a while. You're amazing Freen. The best in the world.

You took the darkness from inside of me and turned it to a beacon burning endlessly bright.

Please everybody that said bad about Freen and talking about Freen cheating on me, that's all lies.

She has been as committed and faithful to our relationship as a saint. She's got no problem.

When I'm with you, I never get enough. I'm never going to make it without you.

Youre the best in everything. And I mean everything. You loved me at my worse. I'm not perfect not even good enough for you but still you loved me.

Thank you for showing me what love really is. Thank you FREEN SAROCHA

We could have been hand in hand in the streets. Moving step by step on the beach enjoying love.

I still wish it could be that way but I know I hurt you beyond redemption and again I'm so sorry Freeny. My Freeny.

You finally made me cry. But it's fine.

Now i believe in love and how crazy it could be. This is our journey, FREEN AND BECKY

To be continued...

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