Sitting with the nerd and porksy I watch as they interact...they clearly have a strong fondness for each other but it's closer then what I feel with macaque and...who Rocky used to be..
Sometimes when I watch them I yearn to have something like they do with the prince... Is that odd? I mean I've been friends with macaque for who knows how long and i've never wished for something like what the two of them have same with zhara..or anyone for that matter so why is it that I want something like this with the prince? I was tense around him only 5 months ago.
Maybe I should ask macaque or maybe I should just ask the two of them considering- "hey sleepy are you alright? " Nerd asks breaking me out of my trance "huh? Oh yea! Just thinking!" Pigsy scowls "the last time you were thinking this hard I almost lost my restaurant!" Nerd chuckles a bit remembering the special soup me and mei made for their anniversary oh right!
"I need your help with something!" I say making them both look at me "yea? What's up sleepy?" Nerd asks seemingly worried
I inhale "it's just.. When I look at you two I wish I had something like that with the pri- monkey king I don't understand why I've had many close friends throughout my life and I've never felt this way before! I don't understand why I'm feeling this way now and especially with the one I tried to kill! "
They both smile at me which makes me tense up pigsy laughs "the monkey King huh? Don't see why" tang also laughs "you've lived for thousands of years and dont know when you're in love?" I stare at them blankly
"Love? What do you mean love? Of course I'm in love with the prince! He's my friend ! Like Mk and Mei! I love them both two! " "not that kind of love kid the romantic kind" porksy says, I look at them confused.. At these times I wish everyone knew fishspanish because that way I would know what the hell romantic means
They notice my confusion and explain
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I jump into the water from Sandy's boat waving to him and swimming off to my cave thingy
I swim inside and look at all of the broken pillars and treasure I've stolen piles of it littered every where
I swim through it into a opening leading to a broken down bridge looking thing that leads into a building.. Sometimes I wonder if this cave was even originally a cave..
I enter it standing on the ground this is the only part with air, I walk up to a stand and sit on it
This is my birthplace my home I was made here of nothing for nothing and I stay here doing nothing but think
Thinking about wukong
what would macaque think? What would rocky say if she were still herself? They both hated him I hated him.. Is it possible to feel such a way for someone who once hated? Someone you once wished to destroy?
Macaque still hates him
I value my friendship with macaque more then my own life.. He brought me out of my everlasting loneliness he taught me how to live how I wanted he is one of the only family I know apart from Zhara
Zhara
What happened to her? I know that lady from new years has to do something with it.
Zhara doesn't remember anything and I don't know how to bring her back I want rocky back the rocky I know.
If only I weren't so stupid.. If only I could remember..
If only I wasn't some fly in a web
Maybe this will all be different
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