— jackie
"i love you too sam.." i whispered to him.
i didnt want him to be angry with josh. that was something he needed to get under control. however, i do love him. i wanted him to know that.
his face softened as he looked at me. he scooped me up off the ground and hugged me as tight as he could.
i laughed as he squeezed me.
"ive loved you since the second i saw you in that studio. ive loved you when we met, when we went to dinner, i loved you when i caught myself worrying about you at the studio, i loved you when i walked past the record store on purpose just to see if you were there. ive loved you since we walked home that night, ive loved you since we kissed. shit jackie ive loved you since i left. i never once doubted that." he said holding me tight and swaying.
i had never felt more loved in my life. sam truly had strong feelings for me, and it was mutual.
i looked up at his face.
he was crying.
it made me tear up.
"oh sam.." i said reaching for his face. i held his cheek and he looked down at me.
"i love you." i said again while looking at him.
he smiled again. his lips met mine shortly after.
"come on." i said pulling away. "as happy as i am right now you have a show to play in the morning. ill still be here." i said letting go of him and walking towards the bus.
he sighed and followed me.
when we got in the bus, josh was crashed on the couch. i pulled a blanket over him and patted his head.
"you know i love your brothers too right?" i said looking at sam behind me while fixing josh's blanket.
"oh yeah." he said smiling. "i love that about you too." he nodded.
"i have to agree. i love her for that as well." jake said tossing a guitar pick at sam from his bunk."
sam picked it up and threw it back.
"alright enough, go to bed you two." i said giving jake his pick that hit the floor. sam didnt have good aim.
sam got into his bunk on the bus and i headed for my couch in the back room.
what a birthday.
—sammy
i woke up to the smell of pancakes and the sound of josh.
josh was complaining because he cant have maple syrup.
then i heard her voice
"josh i really couldnt give a flying fuck, you're eating pancakes!" she shouted. i sat up to rub my eyes.
"how am i supposed to eat PLAIN pancakes." he shouted back.
"ill have 4 pancakes, please." jake said walking over to jackie with a plate.
"comin up!" she said plopping them on his plate.
i hopped out of my bunk.
"goodmorning sam." josh said to me with a blank stare. "can you convince her to make something else." he said pointing at jackie.
"make your own food." i said yawning and walking over to them.
jackie turned to me and smiled. "i made you blueberry pancakes!" she said kissing my cheek.
"for fucks sake? he gets blueberry?!" josh shouted
jake took the plain pancake off of josh's plate and put it onto his.
jackie laughed and looked at josh.
"josh theres fresh tea in the kettle and oatmeal in the microwave for you." she said handing me the plate of pancakes.
josh smiled.
i knew having her around would be amazing.
