Survivor - Jerrie Fanfiction ✅

Chapter 6 - These Four Walls

Chapter 6 – These Four Walls

TW - non graphic mention of physical abuse and rape

Perrie pov

I can't tell where I am or what time it is. I don't know if Jade has been gone for minutes, hours or days... And I don't care. I feel the darkness creeping into my veins and invading every part of me. Time stands still and I find myself in limbo without knowing what to do or where to go. I feel empty and indifferent.

Suddenly noises that I don't recognize catch my attention and I find myself in my room, leaning against the wall while I clutch my knees to my chest. I look at the clock on the wall, it marks 7, I think it's morning and I think I've been in this position all night staring at the void. The same emptiness that is in my heart.

I stare at nothingness again until someone throws open the door. It's Jade. I look at her. She's furious.

"I hate you!" she shouts at the top of his lungs. I get scared but I have no reaction.

Why?

I'm not saying that. I don't say anything.

"I loved you, Perrie! I've told you plenty of times that I would always be there for you! That you could have told me everything! You lied to me! You've been lying all this time! I hate you!" I wake up from my numb state and stand up when I see tears streaming down her face.

"What are you talking about, Jade? I don't understand"

Jade mocks me and laughs bitterly.

" Are you fucking kidding me? Because I was just woken up from my sleep with this nice shitty video! Do you want to see it?" my eyes open wide when I realize what she just said. It can't be, Alex can't have done it...

Jade starts the video and I immediately see my face and Alex's hand on my throat. Shivers run through my skin and fear invades my body.

"Turn it off, please. Turn it off!" I scream desperately, closing my eyes and plugging my ears, Jade gives another bitter smile.

"Of course, you know very well how it went" Jade says, interrupting the video.

Yes

I do nothing but remember

"Jade, I'm sorry, I should have told you but I couldn't. I'm sorry, forgive me! I'm begging you" I cry and kneel taking her hands, Jade immediately pushes me away and I collapse on the ground crying.

"Fuck you, Perrie! I trusted you, I gave you all of me, I told you hundreds of times that you could tell me anything. You disgust me, Perrie! You make me feel sick!"

I disgust myself too

I make me feel sick too

"Please, please let me explain!" I sob without being able to look at her.

"I don't want your fucking explanation! You don't have to look at me anymore! I don't want to talk to you anymore, I don't want to see you anymore! Fuck you!" Jade screams and I can't say a word, I can only cry and wheeze as I feel my heart break into a million pieces and see the world crumble under my feet.

"I want you out of here within ten minutes. Take your shit and leave" her voice is calm, cold and sharp.

"Jade, please let me explain"

"I said out now! OUT!" Jade screams like never before and I gasps in fright. For the first time I'm afraid she'll hurt me. For the first time I'm afraid she'll beat me too.