Survivor - Jerrie Fanfiction ✅

Chapter 26 - I Won't

Chapter 26 – I Won't

Jesy pov

"Hi Pez!" I say enthusiastically as I enter her place, she comes up smiling and hugs me. She does it every time she sees me by now and I'm so happy that she feels comfortable with me again.

"How are you?" I ask her with a smile on my face.

"I'd be better if I could breathe" she laughs sincerely and her magnificent laughter fills the walls of the room, I realise I'm holding her a little too tightly and I let her go.

"I'm sorry" I whisper worriedly, but she keeps laughing and returns to my arms.

"I'm fine, Jes. I was just kidding" she reassures me gently.

"So, what would you like to do today?" I ask her.

By now Perrie has started going out fairly easily again, sure, crowded places aren't her first choice because they still cause her anxiety, but she's starting to do normal things like go shopping, or to the cinema and restaurant.

She saw Zayn again last week and their meeting was full of happy tears and forgiveness. She even hugged Zayn at the end.

Even though Pez is now comfortable being alone, I preferred to come and keep her company since Jade is at the label to discuss something with Simon. She hasn't told me what it is yet but I think it has something to do with my blonde friend.

Perrie hasn't spoken any more about what she'd like to do in the future and we haven't pushed for it, although I often see her writing, she never shows me what, but I suppose they're songs. I'd like her to let me listen to something, but I don't want to force her.

Apart from that, in all honesty we could use some help with the new tracks.

Jade has written I Love You and Love Me Like You which will probably be a single and they are obviously for Pez, although she still doesn't seem to get it.

Leigh and I have been collaborating with other songwriters and the result is A.D.I.D.A.S., Hair and Black Magic, which will be the bomb, if it goes as I expect I'll get to the point where I'll be sick of singing it!

Jade told me she wanted to ask Perrie if she could also record Love Me or Leave Me, but she's afraid Pez will say no because it brings back too many bad memories.

That leaves the three songs we had written before we found Perrie: Grown, Weird People and OMG.

My Love Won't Let You Down, which to this day is one of my favourites as it reminds me of the day Perrie woke up, will not be included on this album. At least that's what Simon has decided and it doesn't seem to me that he wants to change his mind. He says he's missing something and it's not pop enough. Marketing issues or something.

The truth is that the thing that is missing in all these songs is one thing. And it's not a thing, but a person.

I don't have to say who I'm talking about, do I?

So in order to have a complete album, we are missing at least three more tracks, me, Leigh and Jade have started writing a new one, but we are not convinced.

Honestly, without Perrie's voice, nothing seems to convince me.

On top of that, fans still don't know that Perrie is no longer in the band and now I'm wondering what she would like to do, because if we make the official announcement she will be peppered with questions and I don't think it will be healthy for her to be in the spotlight having to explain her leaving.

"Jesy!" Pez snaps her fingers in front of my eyes, "I've been calling you for ten minutes, baba. What's wrong with you?" she asks me laughing.

"Sorry, sunshine. I was thinking about the new album. We're late and we're still missing a few songs" I tell her sincerely but omitting all my reasoning about her.