Survivor - Jerrie Fanfiction ✅

Chapter 20 - We can be happy

Chapter 20 - We can be happy

TW - mention of abuses

Jade pov

Perrie has fallen asleep on the sofa next to me, greatly to our surprise. The film proceeds but my attention is all on her, I watch as she slowly raises and lowers her chest and keeps her mouth slightly ajar. I look at her pale skin full of the freckles I love and feel anger invade me when I see the scars on her wrists and arms from the too many times she has been tied, cut or burned.

I wonder how a human being could do such things to another human being, especially I wonder how someone could do it to my Pez, such a beautiful, sweet and gentle creature who would never hurt anyone.

I keep observing her, running my gaze over all her shapes, from her feet to her head, I look at her face and for the first time it seems to me that there is no pain or fear but only peace and serenity. I wish it could always be like that and I think of what I can do to make her believe that no one will ever hurt her again and no one will ever touch her in that way again.

I see that she begins to tremble and cautiously take the blanket in the basket next to the sofa and cover her leaving only her head out, she stiffens for a moment but then relaxes again and I smile as I only wish it could always be that simple.

The movie is almost over when I see Perrie start shaking again, I watch her face and know that this time it's not because of the cold. Her visage expresses pain and fear as her arms move to cover her face with the intent to protect herself from her abuser.

"N-no! Please stop!" her voice is broken and frightened and I know we must not wake her up while she is in the middle of her nightmare. Jesy turns off the television and I get off the couch and kneel next to her face.

"You're safe, Perrie" I say softly, "No one is going to hurt you, you're safe"

"Stop, stop, don't! Please don't!!!" she goes on screaming and I can see the sweat dampening her forehead.

"It's okay, you're fine, you're safe" I tell her over and over again and slowly I see her calm down and blink.

Jesy and Leigh walk towards the kitchen to give us a moment alone and I turn to Perrie as she rubs her eyes and breathes heavily.

"It's okay" I repeat again.

"I-I'm sorry... I-I-I" Perrie stutters and against everything I know I decide to caress her cheek, she opens her eyes wide and stays still as I gently caress her.

"I know you believe I'm going to hit you, baby, but I promise I never will. I promise I will never hurt you, love. I know you're scared of me and you don't trust anyone, but I promise you with my life that I will protect you until my last breath and I will never let what happened with Alex or his friends happen again, ever" I go on stroking her cheek and Perrie remains still listening to my words but slowly relaxes, "You're safe here, I promise you, you're safe. Pez, I know you think Alex loved you, but what Alex did wasn't love, what Alex did to you wasn't right, it wasn't your fault, you never deserved any of it. You only deserve love, care and devotion. Nobody should ever hurt another person or force them to do something they don't want to do. I know you don't believe it now, but I will tell you every day. You are safe here. And neither I nor anyone else will hurt you"

"Perrie, I... I made a mistake. I did everything wrong, I should never have broken up with you and pushed you away, I shouldn't have yelled at you every time you tried to talk to me. And that's not an excuse because I have no excuse, but I didn't know. I didn't know Alex had r..." I can't continue as I feel tears sting my eyes, but Perrie looks at me confused and I know I need to explain myself better.