Survivor - Jerrie Fanfiction ✅

Chapter 9 - The truth pt. 1

Chapter 9 – The truth pt. 1

TW - mention of rape and physical abuse

Jade pov

It's been a year since Perrie left, a year that Jesy, Leigh and I try to write a damn album but we can't write anything. I hate to admit it, but without Perrie things are different.

But after what she did, it's better this way. I thought she would always tell me the truth. I thought she trusted me. But, instead, she did nothing but lie.

Sometimes I miss her, I miss her smile that lights up the room, I miss her laugh, I miss her soft and sexy voice and her humour. I miss her sweetness and sensuality. I miss her way of writing, of rhyming simple words and making you feel all her passion. I miss her.

But Perrie left with Alex and I can't forgive her.

Anyway,

A year that we write shitty songs and keep postponing the release of the album saying that it is because of promotion, in reality the album doesn't exist at all. We recorded three songs and that's it. We have not yet given the news of Perrie's departure. If you ask me, I don't agree with that, but it was a marketing decision.

Without Perrie things are different, we can no longer write, we can no longer communicate, we can no longer be happy.

As angry as I may be with her, Perrie has always been our ray of sunshine.

And now there is only rain

I heard that she moved to Liverpool with Alex eight months ago from a gossip magazine, she never called, she never texted. Nothing at all.

My mom said that just before she moved, Perrie and Debbie had a big fight and never heard from each other again.

Sometimes I see articles about Alex and there are some pictures of Perrie.

She's always beautiful, but she looks slimmer to me.

I probably think too much, I look for things that are not there, I see things that do not exist.

I feel bad to hope that things between her and Alex don't go well, because at the end of the day I want her to be happy, but I would like her to come back one day and ask me for forgiveness. I know she has already done so. I know I haven't forgiven her. I know maybe I wouldn't forgive her even now.

But after a year trying to forget about her, I realized that no matter what I do, where I go or who I meet, no one is like her, no one will ever be like her.

And I'm still in love with her

I'm in love with Perrie Edwards

But she is happy.

And she will not come back

Jesy pov

It's already been four hours since we have been here, in the writing room trying to write another damn song. Like every other day we end up holed up in our thoughts and none of us writes anything.

"Enough, let's go to Nando's" I say getting up from the chair that now has the shape of my ass.

Jade and Leigh look at me as if I have three heads.

"Jesy we have to write something" Leigh replies.

"We haven't written anything until now, why should it be different in the next hour?"