sitting just behind you

tell me,listen me

He walked out of the class but stopped at the doorstep. I followed him upto the doorstep and reached near him. He smirked and indicated me to follow him.

I was still baffled at his actions but I obeyed him reluctantly. "where are we going Taehyung?"I asked him as we kept walking in the school lobby.

"I need to listen many things now. You need to explain many.. I hope you understand."he said and took me to the school ground.

I understood what he was talking about. But I don't know what to say. We reached the playground where alot of students were playing basketball. He took me to the corner of the ground and we settled ourselves on a bench.

He turned to face me and said,"Now,explain." He gave me keen look.

"I am sorry for today Taehyung. I know I talked too rudely to you. Please forgive me."

"I am not talking about that. I am talking about how you got hurt and why are you hiding it."He said a little annoyed and impatient to listen the answer.

I became nervous at the fact of my secret being revealed. "It's nothing Taehyung. You don't need to worry much about it."

"How can you say it's nothing. Do you still count me as a rebel. Am I not your friend?"

"No Taehyung. It's not that."

"Then what is it?"

"Why don't you share your problems with me? Why you behave so wierd?huh. Tell me what is bothering you."

It was the first time ever someone had asked me about my feelings. I was never being cared by anyone about my feelings. Even I invalidate myself. But he is worried.....worried for me.

"Taehyung..I -I did it by myself."

His eyes widened in disbelief. The fact was too horrible for him to gulp at once.
"But why? What makes you do such a thing?"

" You know what I am a burden. I am a burden to everyone. To my mom,to my dad,to my every loved one. I can't do anything right. I am tired being a burden now Taehyung." Tears welled up in my eyes as the horrible moments flashed in the back ok my mind.

I spoke in between my sobs but I couldn't speak anymore as I was overwhelmed by the incident.

Suddenly Taehyung brought me closer to him and wrapped me around his arms tightly. I tried to pull apart but he held me closer to him even tighter.

"It's ok Dasom. I don't know what makes you to harm yourself but I know one thing for sure. You can't be a burden for anyone. Sometimes we all need to pour our feelings. Don't stop yourself from expressing your feelings."

"If it so then why dad left us. Why he beats us. Why he loves that lady more than us?"

I bursted out crying . He comforted me as I continued crying. "You are looking like a monkey right now. Yah stop crying or I will throw you on the ground crybaby."

I chuckled at him and wiped my tears. I pulled away from him and sat on a safe distance between us.

"Crybaby don't you ever hurt yourself again okay or I will burn all your notes and put them in trash."he said and OKed my nose.

"Ok mama. By the way I am neither a monkey nor a crybaby. But you are a
pathetic scrunchy nose for sure." I teased him and stuck my tounge out.

He tried to reach but I stood up and started running before he could approach me. He chased me and I could say he is such a good runner. He catched me in a minute.

"What did you say? I am a scrunchy nose. Now you have to pay for it."he pouted cutely.

"For what?"

"I listened to you and even ruined my shirt because of your tears. Now you say I am a scrunchy nose. I am angry."

"Ok, ok sorry Mr. Taehyung. I will treat you with an ice cream. Now happy?"

He giggled as I offered him a treat. It is so easy to convince him. He is like a five year old kid at times and sometimes he cares for you like no one else.

I kept watching him as he danced in joy. He looks so perfect. His face is flawless. In addition to this his skin glimmered as the sunrays blessed every inch of his bare skin.

The bell rang and the recess was over. We entered our classroom and attended the rest of the classes.

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After the school was over I headed towards home.

As I reached the school gate I saw Namjoon oppa was waiting for me. My lips curled into a wide smile as I saw him and I ran towards him.

He widened his arms and I crashed into his arms. He swirled me around and then put me down carefully.

"When did you came back from America? I missed you so much"I cheered in joy. "You don't even pick up my calls. You left for three years. Didn't you missed us? I was so worried for you.Tell me why didn't you contacted us for all this years."

"Dasomiee at least let me speak then only I will be able to answer you. First of all let's go to home. I came here directly from the airport to surprise you. I am really starving for aunty's food."Namjoon oppa said.

I nodded and we headed towards my home. I know Namjoon oppa since I was five years old. He was our acquaintance. He was two years older than me and I seven when we shifted in the apartment.

He was always nice to me and took my care like I was his small sister. We played together and grew together,but he went overseas for his higher studies.

I missed him so much over these years but now that he is back i would never let him go away.

We went to my house together holding each others hand and chatting like we used to do when we were young.We entered my house together and saw that there was no one in the house.I saw a note mom left on the dining table saying that she would come late today due to some work. I sighed.

Ever since dad and mom separated its the normal of our house to be with me only. "Oppa,today mom is gonna be late so I guess you have to satisfy your hunger with the food cooked by me."