I'm not just your boy toy (old version)

18 (2/2)-Not on the same page

18 (2/2)-Not on the same page

Garrett's pov

It's been a week and there haven't been any crazy changes but on the inside, there's a lot that did change.

Ever since my birthday, I could've been happier. I was the one on top for the first time and I think it was a pretty good gift, knowing it was last minute.

During this past week, I did it at least one more time and in terms of giving blow jobs to Brandon, well let's just say it's happening way more often than before.

Anyways, regarding my birthday night. I was afraid all of that night was just an exception but it wasn't really.

After he stayed that night, we started going back to seeing each other like before. All the small details, like cooking for him, sometimes, we eat together and sleep together.

By the way, I started cuddling him again when we sleep! He lets me do it! Usually, he doesn't want to. He says he gets aroused whenever we do so. Well...let's say this is where most of those blow jobs come from.

Regardless, of all of this happening, small details mean bigger than meets the eye.

I never thought about it that way but it feels like we are living together. Not just a plain couple but it feels like we are married even if we are not acting like we are married.

We have been in my apartment far more often than his. I'm starting to think he's running away from his apartment.

We still don't have the perfect communication and we'll probably never will but it feels something has changed since my birthday.

It seems like he's more aware of my feelings or what I want, well myself overall. Strangely, he's suddenly like that.

I won't say like we are more couple like but it's been better. We didn't really have a serious conversation since then, though, he doesn't treat me as a toy anymore, like Rachel used to say.

Sure we have our dose of sexual activity which I seriously for real got used to doing it, every single day but that's fine by me. Sure sometimes it's tiring but I believe Brandon is training my stamina. Maybe my stamina is higher now because I didn't do it for 3 whole years. Hmm, strange.

Regardless, that's where the key differences come to play.

Another thing I've noticed is that Brandon seems to be more..experimenting I'd say? He's been kissing me far more than he's ever had. He's not the affectionate guy but it feels like he's putting an effort.

He'll always like sexual activity but I believe the fact he's starting to make a difference between what's sexual and what's not is a bigger deal than it looks like I don't even know if he's aware of it through.

Now that I think about it...is it his way of showing me he likes me..?

No! I'm getting carried away! He clearly doesn't like me like that.

Is it ok to think those small changes will make us a couple eventually? Like we actually stand a chance? Why am I so hopeful? I think I should know by now that I'll only end up disappointed.

Though, one thing that has always been confusing about Brandon and it's getting worse is the contrast between his words versus his actions.

I know that because it made me cry constantly times and times again.

His actions make me think we are far more serious than I thought we are. It's not dating but somewhere in between. Through, every time I think so it's like he says the exact opposite of what it looks like between us.