I'm not just your boy toy (old version)

14-Heartbreaking decision

14-Heartbreaking decision

Garrett's pov

The other day I went to the gay bar with Brandon and it didn't go all too well. I know that because I cried.

What was even worse is that after Brent mentioned I was crying, Brandon didn't even apologize. I think I never heard him apologize before. He just tried to make me forget about it by making me dance with him and drink too. Later on, we had sex as usual, his way to apologize.

Now I feel so pathetic for crying but I know that I just couldn't help it. I hate it when Brandon mentions we are just mere f**k buddies. It hurts my feelings. I always thought we were more than that and him bringing me back to reality just hits hard.

I don't really understand, with everything we've done those past few weeks, we can't be considered just as mere fuck buddies as he says. We've done too much for it to be the case.

Just thinking about us being only mere sex partners makes me think about how much it changed between us since the start.

If it weren't for my persistence, every meal together, sleeping together, sharing each other's apartments, seeing each other after work, our time spent together and having sex together, everything wouldn't have happened.

Even if I know that our situation right now is still not the relationship I want, as it's unfortunately just sexual in nature, I hope my persistence will help but I know that I sadly lost most of that persistence. That's thanks to the fact I always surrender to Brandon's attractiveness.

Even if that worries me a lot, work comes first and that's what I have to do now.

As I just arrived, I go into the elevator and go up my floor. As soon as I land on said floor, I head for my desk.

At my desk, I'm met by Rachel that has a soft smile on her face. She notices me and she comes towards me.

"Ready to work?"

"Yeah.."

"What is making you in such a mood again?" She asks worried.

"It's nothing. I'm fine."

"No, you're not fine."

"Ok.."

"It's Brandon again is it?"

"Why do you always know that?"

"Because he's the only one you talk about." I blush feeling flustered.

"Oh.."

"Let's sit down and tell me what he did before we seriously have to get our work done."

"It's not that bad but ok.."

I told her most of our issues and what I think about them because she encouraged me to say what bothers me.

"Garrett...I just really don't understand why you're letting him treat you like that."

"I know that but Brandon has his good sides too."

"Really? The last few weeks, it's always been about his bad side."

"I didn't notice..."

"Does he make you happy or are you trying to make yourself believe that?"

"Rachel! Don't you dare say that! I love spending time with Brandon!"

"Are you really sure? He keeps making you cry."

"But it doesn't mean he doesn't make me happy. It just makes me sad that he doesn't like me back."