"Here...Dean left this for you" Bobby handed Ben the letter after Ben let him into his dorm room.
"Where is he? Why hasn't he answered my calls lately?" Ben started to worry.
"Something happened last week...sorry" Bobby couldn't tell Dean's son that his father committed suicide. Bobby started to tear up but wouldn't let a drop fall. He wanted to be strong for what was left of The Winchesters.
Ben read the letter and stood there in shock. He didn't know what to say or do. He lost his mother about two years ago and now he lost his dad.
"No, he didn't. Dean wouldn't. We were starting to be a family" Ben finally spoke after a few moments in silence. He hugged Bobby tightly and let his guard down and started to cry.
"Is Cas okay? Please tell me he is!" Ben asked about the man he only met twice.
"I know Dean loves him, loved...does Cas know? He must know! My dad would want to tell him" Ben kept talking as Bobby tighten the hug.
"He knows, he found him. Dean left him a letter as well" Bobby managed to tell Ben.
"Dean loved Cas, a lot Bobby! Why would he do this??" Ben still couldn't believe that his dad was dead.
"Your Uncle Sam passed...Dean didn't take it very well" Bobby explained.
"Sam is dead?? Why didn't Dean tell me?? I could have been there for him!!" Ben didn't understand why Dean wouldn't reach out for help.
"You know Dean loves you very much. Before he even knew you were his son. I know he wants you to continue with schooling and having a normal life. Do that for him, please. Don't get into hunting. You can stay with me whenever you want but promise me you'll continue university" Bobby didn't want Ben getting into the life that kills so many great people.
"I'll try" Ben simply told him.
Four months later
Ben was on summer break and decided to live with Bobby. He would spend most of his time working on cars in the yard and tried to get some of them running then sell them. Almost everyday he would visit Dean's grave and tell him about his day.
"Hey Dad, I fixed this 68' Camaro. I miss you. I just miss you so much. The last time we talked we got into a fight about university. I wanted to quit and start my own shop. I wanted to fix cars all day. What I didn't tell you was I wanted us to work together and we could call it 'Winchesters'. I love you Dad. I wish I knew about your pain. Maybe I could have helped"
"Ben, no one could help him. He didn't let anyone in" Cas quietly said to Ben.
"Shit Cas! Don't scare me like that. You can't just ninja your way over here"
"Sorry...Ben, i'm just so sorry for your lost. Dean was an amazing man" Cas talked about Ben's dad.
"I know he loved you. From the day he met you he wanted to be your father" Cas began explaining.
"You know he loved you too, right? He loved you so much. He just didn't know how to tell you" Ben told Cas.
"And I love him so very much. I would do anything for him. He's the only one I could ever love like this" Cas poured out.
"I just want him back" Ben let out a huge breath.
"Me too" Cas hugged Ben.
Author's Note:
*dramatic music* what will happened next? I don't know. What will Cas do? I don't know. Part 4 will be posted soon...
