My Journey Through Self Love

Chapter 2 - Allowing Myself to Be

After dealing with depression for so many years, I finally took some steps to heal. I started reading books, listening to podcasts, and watching videos centered around mental health and wellbeing, and I tried my best to unlearn all of my trauma responses and kickstart my healing.

Unfortunately, despite everything that I was doing, I was still struggling to fully heal.

Then one day, something finally clicked for me and jolted me in the right direction.

I learned the importance of allowing myself to exist and be. I started allowing myself to cry and feel my emotions in the moment without holding back. I began taking breaks from social media, music, and any other distractions so that I could be in the present moment with myself. I was able to release my pain. I respected myself a lot more. And I learned that in doing all of that, I was truly ok and safe.

I still struggle with the fear of putting myself in such a vulnerable position. But I've been allowing myself to feel the fear while also trusting that I will be ok regardless of how those feelings show up.

I want to use journaling as one tool that gives me the space to feel my emotions. Sometimes journaling is the only way to begin drawing out those emotions and starting the conversation. And in those moments when my emotions are coming out, I want to listen to what my body is telling me it needs and be willing to provide that for myself.