My Journey Through Self Love

Chapter 9 - Being

I've talked about following my tuition which has mostly involved me doing things that feel right for me.

But I also want to allow things to just be. I want to do what I want in the present moment but also be willing to sit in silence or accept the state of where things are right now.

There are going to be periods where there's just nothing to do or there's no progress to be made. And I can't be hard on myself for trying to do things and be productive when there isn't anything to do (and I'm just stuck in the in-between). Truthfully, I'm free to just do nothing in those moments.

I can just be and enjoy things and not feel bad about it. I always take care of all of my responsibilities. But I finally have a life that I can live instead of just having a life about school or work or the next big thing.

My life is (and should be) fluid. Sometimes I have a lot of work to do. Sometimes my life is mostly time spent with family. Sometimes my life is mostly time spent with friends. For a while, it was mostly time spent in school and with my negative emotions about myself. But now, my life can revolve around other things or even nothing at all. I don't have to constantly be doing things all the time for my life to be worth living.