Art in Words

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I drown it out
The feeling of being alive - knowing that the questions in the back of my mind will never be answered...
Never will I understand anything about life..
So I try to drown it out, stifle it, and I continuously kill myself in the process.

I try to drown it out
The feeling of dying
I try to drown it out, so that I don't have to be afraid.
Afraid of what comes after, afraid of regret, afraid that I haven't done enough to repent...
Afraid that God really isn't here

I try to drown it out
The feeling of feeling nothing
Of being numb
And yet I still will never be satisfied with myself.
So I try to drown it out