Aeviternal

2

It has been a long week of 'I'm sorry for your lost' and gloomy nights, it had been too many missed calls and unanswered texts, I was fine....I really was, these people needed to leave me alone, they made me think of it...of the reality and I didn't like that. Not one bit.

On Wednesday I finally gained the courage to call my mother, in the back of my head there was a sudden voice telling me to put the phone down and to leave things as they were, you see my mother had been the reason for my father's sudden collapse, she fought too much, tried to tie up their marriage for the sake of the 'children' yet, me and robbi were no longer kids. She didn't even attend the funeral, left no reason, I bet she thought about the moment her high school sweetheart would fade away, he was just 45.

"Kataleah! For God's sakes I thought you were dead!"

"At these times, I wish I were"

"Don't say that....we don't need no more deaths around here........how are you holding up"

"I'm doing just fine, what do you want?"

"Can't a mother worry about their children! Robbie is coming into town tomorrow, I'm holding a family reunion for your father's memory....why don't you come by"

I took a sharp breath, last time I saw my parents house was 5 years ago, I was 16, I got into a whole mess and I ran away, like a foolish beautiful girl I was. Chills ran up my spine as I stared into space, I scratched the back of my neck.

"Mother...you know how I feel about Gregory rose town....i-i"

"Do it for your father, all your cousins will be here, even robbie and some girl he met upstate....come on...I bet everyone has forgotten kat...really"

I sighted and took a gulp of my wine, I closed my eyes for a moment and groaned.

"I'll think about it, mom".

I fell upon my pillow, fluttering my eyes shut, I took a deep breath and relaxed, letting sleep Take over my body and then I was back in the old jeep, with my hands running through his hair, he was much older than me and I remembered the excitement of keeping him my secret. He had beautiful lips and deep blue irises that pulled your soul within, he was warm...he was warm.

"It's getting late kataleah....won't your folks be worried?"

His voice was soft and it made goosebumps rise upon my skin as he looked up at me.

"They shouldn't worry....I'm with an adult"

I giggled and he chuckled yet it wasn't laughing matter.

Rrrrrrrriiiiiinnnnnnnngggggg!

I sat up quickly looking over to my phone, I squinted slightly as I reached over to my lighting phone in the dim room, I pressed the green button and pushed it on my ear.

"Hello?"

I asked lazily

"So have you thought about it?"

"Robbie?"

My eyes opened up as I stepped off the bed.

"I miss you sis, I miss dad too"

He sounded sad, distant, robbie didn't go to the funeral either, he had a better excuse then mom though, he actually physically couldn't attend because of his PTSD, things like this would trigger him and nobody desired that, not for robbie, robbie was the good guy, my brother.

"I know"

I muttered.

"Come to town, I promise I'll break any body's face who tries to make a comment about you, I just really want to see you"

"I'm scared robbie"

"I'm know you are but the people have moved on, it wasn't their business anyways, they made a huge deal out of it....you were just 16"

'YOU ARE JUST 16, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING! THAT MAN'S LIFE IS DESTROYED NOW'

I blinked, my bothers voice coming back to my ear.

"So, what do you say katty?"

I smiled softly at the nickname, I bit down onto my nails as I slid down the wall of my hallway.

"I'll pack my shit"

"That's my katty"

The call had lasted a few minutes more before it ended and it left me in silence again and with a new task. I clinched my jaw slightly and stood up, I went into the bathroom and washed my face, I looked into the mirror and looked at the black bags under my eyes and then closed my eyes, I needed sleep or I needed rehab, I just needed comfort.

I hope I would find it in the place I swore to never go back to.

I threw some articles of clothing into the open suit case, my phone rang again for the 43rd time, nobody cares until it's too late. I picked, a huff leaving my system as I carried more clothes into a seperate bag.

"Kataleah! Your coming!"

My mother's voice pierced my ear, I rolled my eyes momentarily and zipped up the bag.

"Yeah...uh...but I'm only doing it for robbie, I miss him...I mean we miss each other"

"I don't care, as long as I get to have you here, kata.....this town misses your colors"

I had no more colors, I was a child anymore, I was 21 sure but I had lost my colors and I had lost my naive ways, I had grown up.

"I'll talk to you soon mother"

I threw my phone onto the bed and fell back onto it too.

I was going to see the town again, the lake and the park and the 3 floored home, the old and the new, the people and the children.

Him.