Aeviternal

12

It was like the room was going in circles, I held onto chai's arm, he must have noticed my reaction because his arms wrapped around my waist to keep me steady almost instantly. I felt more then 50 pair of eyes on me and I felt like a spotlight was shinning on me, like in 8th grade when I chocked up on my speech for my history class and almost passed out in mr.Stevenson's class.
I looked up and jake stood by the door shocked, there was a pause and then there was applause and cheers and people laughing and excitement and all I wanted to do was collapse.
I looked back at chai and nodded my head in some kind of thanks and then put my glass down and left through the back door, the back door I had sneaked into many years ago to steal kisses from jake when his wife wasn't home
Excuse me
His pregnant wife.
I rummaged through my purse and finally got a hold of my keys and ran as fast towards my car as my legs could take me.
                 "Leaving in a rush?"
I looked up and there she stood, the perfect monster, the perfect housewife with jakes child growing inside of her, the perfect move to take me off the board.
                                   'Checkmate'

"I-i i was gonna look for something in my car" she smiled a smile that can make trees cave in and storms to destroy mountains. "I won kataleah...I finally won and you lost....I guess you don't always get what you want, you spoiled brat".

I scoffed "excuse me?" My chest felt heavy, I didn't have the energy and I didn't have the time, I needed to collapse in my bed and cry because she was right, I had lost, I had lost the battle and the war.

"Go home kataleah I think you have out lasted your stay and to be completely honest nobody in this town missed you.....except....for oh well yes, your idiotic father"

Most of it was a blur after that, I rush of adrenaline that I didn't even know was inside of me in the moment waved inside of me and I had given into it.

I grabbed her by her throat and tightened my grip, she looked at me shocked as if she wasn't expecting this attack, she tried grabbing my hair but I punched her right in her eye.
"Kataleah stop!" People rushed out of kataleah's house and pulled me away, some of her friends stood by her side and helped her gain back her composure.
"Your a savage! I'm pregnant!"
I spit on the floor, my mother wore a face of horror as she looked at me, I pulled away from the arms of the people holding me back and I looked up to see jake running toward Patricia and holding her face and then his eyes fell on me and then my stomach twisted and tears were prepared to rush down my cheeks.
"Congratulations"
I muttered before walking to my car and getting in, starting the ignition and driving off, I had out stayed my visit, I had been here for way too long, I should have left a long time ago and maybe none of this would have happened.
I parked outside my house in a way that maybe my license should have been revoked, in my mind with every step I took all the ground beneath me set on fire, I was furious and disappointed, I stepped into the house were I had lived all my childhood dreams and slammed the door and then I collapsed.

Tears rushing down my face and my chest empty and my hair in my face and my soul destroyed and that's why I shouldn't have made a home out of
Jake, that's why I should have never loved him in the first place because at 16 I knew that I would end up like this, just like this.
I grabbed onto the walls and walked up into the kitchen and I grabbed onto as many bottles of alcohol that I could find and I chugged them down like water, liquor and it's bitter taste drowning my body like rivers and as if on queue my heart settled in.
I slipped down the cabinets and I glanced at myself in one of my moms mirrors and I looked as Broken as I felt.
"KATALEAH!"
my mothers screams filled the house with echo and then there was a slam of the door that sunk my heart even more.
I quickly stood up and ran to the hallway
"I'm so sorry mom.....I am so sorry"
Her eyes went from rage to sadness and she soon cried too, she walked closer to me and held me in her arms for the first time in 2 weeks and she laid my head onto her chest and she cried and cried just like me.
"Oh, kataleah how I wish I had taken care of you more"
There wasn't any warnings or guide, there was just the raw reality of the pain that we had kept aside for way too long.
*
I woke up to the sun shinning in my face and my head pounding like my heart, I groaned and sat up and looked around my room, pictures of last night flashing through my head, leaving me empty again.
There was a knock on the door and Robbie welcomed himself in with an aspirin and a bottle of water.
"I just don't understand how you haven't died yet"
He joked
"There's an empty bottle of patron and grey goose downtairs kataleah, people in my college don't even drink like that"
I chuckled slightly and I took the aspirin from his hand.
"There's experience in this body"
He made a face of discomfort then sat on the edge of my bed.
"What did she say?"
I looked up at him as I swallowed down the pill
"What?"
"I know you didnt just savagely grab her, what did she say?"
"She said dad was an idiot"
"I fucking knew it, she's poison"
"I shouldn't have though, people hate me more now"
He looked down at his hands and shrugged "we were never meant to fit into this town"
I smiled slighly and ran my hands down my hair, putting it up in a bun.
"I guess you are right"
He smiled
"I'm gonna go downstairs and help mom with breakfast"
I nodded and watched him leave, my phone rang and I followed the vibrations under my covers.
"Hello?"
"Hello it's me chai, I was just checking up on you, how's everything?
"Well I punched a pregnant lady in the face"
"The usual" he joked, I laughed and looked down at my feet "she shouldn't have said those things about your father" my heart skipped a beat "you heard?" There was a pause and then a sigh "I followed after you left, I wanted to see if you were okay but then I stood back when I saw that she was there, she's as evil as they come"
I nodded to myself "yeah" I agreed.
"I'll call you back, I have a few patients I have to check up on, just wanted to see how you were holding up and to be completely honest, jake never deserved you"
We said our goodbyes but that sentence settled into my brain like a bad hangover ironically.
It was true, me and jake didn't deserve each other
Didn't mean we didn't want each other
Need each other
Love each other.