Aeviternal

13

I glanced over at my emails that were displayed on the screen of my laptop, i scanned them carefully, some business opportunities and some questions from my clumsy assistant.
My glasses laid on top of my nose as i tried to make a decision
'Should i stay or should i go?'
The question had played in my mind like a catchy stupid song and i couldnt bring myself to terms that maybe it was my time to leave.....again.

I looked over at my suit case and then at my car keys, i had nothing to loose. I sighed and walked over to my bedroom door and swung it open, my mother was just about to step down the stairs when she glanced at me and smiled at me carefully.

"Good morning kataleah"

I smiled and nodded and then i looked down my palms because I was nervous....i was running away from my problems again, you'd think as an adult i would have more things to say, like
The things i couldn't say as a teenager would automatically come out and people would hear me out but i had never had faced my problems and i don't think as a bad habit that it was, that I was ever going to.

"I have to go back home mom....."
"Kataleah...."
"It's just i have work and they need me and i shouldnt have taken so much time off because.."

"Go home kataleah"
My brother spoke, standing in front of his old room, his hands in his pocket and his look more worried then anything else.
"I'll go back home too"
He nodded, my mother looked at both us in disbelief, almost baffled by the statements we were making.
"Okay, kataleah you got your heart broken, you love a man that has a wife and a child on the way and you are in pain and so what? You're gonna run away? Like always, leaving storms behind you because you are scared to stare them right in the face and tell them to leave you alone?"

My heart sank and i felt my knees weaken and my throat tighten
" i could have raised you to be a home wrecker, an alcoholic, an anti social girl with emotional issues and the most gothic sense of style that i have ever seen in my entire life"
Robbie chuckled and i looked up at my mother with teared up eyes.
"But i didnt raises no bitch"

Jake p.o.v

"Oh yes mother, jake is delighted, we haven't stopped talking about the baby all day,
I'm so excited!" I could her voice in the other room and i felt suffocated, was it okay the fact that i didn't feel any excitement rather desperation and contemplation of where my life stood now?
I mean i was going to be a father and i was as excited as any soon to be father, holding a piece of me in my arms and swaying them to sleep was an image I've had for a long time engraved in my mind and in my deepest desires but something was off....something wasn't okay.
"Jake"
Patricia snapped her fingers in-front of my face, i glanced up to her eyes, those eyes that once made my heart skip beats but that now caused my heart to hurt. I scanned at her side of her face and the bruise that Kataleah had left there and i gulped.
"Mother is coming next week to help me with the preparations with the baby"
I nodded and sighed.
"Something wrong?"
"Why?"
She looked down at my sitting position and confusion crossed her face as she poured herself a cup of water.
"Why,What sweetheart?"
"Why get pregnant now Patricia"
She almost chocked on her water as she let the water run down her throat, she fixed her composure and fixed her eyes on me.
"What do you mean jake, we are finally having a family, this what we've always wanted"
"Patricia we tried getting pregnant for 2 years after our wedding and nothing ever happened, doctor visits and exams and everything seemed well but you never became pregnant"
"What are you trying to say jake?"
Her voice empowering mine, i stood up and smoothed out my sweater.
"Our marriage is falling to pieces Patricia, we don't love each other, we barely touch besides when i hold your hand in public for affirmation to this stupid town that we are still married in some ways, how dare you try to bring a child into this broken home!"
I shouted.
Tears slipped down her now velvet cheeks and i shook my head and stormed up the steps, i never meant to hurt her and that was never my intentions but there was no way that i could have pretended to be okay with the way things were and this was not about the fact that I didn't love her but kataleah but about the fact that she was so selfish to try to bring an innocent child into this Marriage that was already falling apart as it was.
It was unfair.

No p.o.v

The brunette looked through the books that were left inside her fathers office, dust consuming them like sadness settling in a room.
"Wow, finally get to come in here without getting shouted at"
Robbie looked over at his fathers books and a smile managed to sleep through the melancholic comment.
"You think he used to come in here when he was upset and read these"
Kataleah spoke, running her hands on the cover of a copy of 'to kill a mockingbird'.
Robbie shrugged and took a seat behind the desk where his father once sat reviewing numbers for the family company.
"I think he just came in here to smoke cigars so mom wouldn't flip"
Kataleah smirked and giggled and then put down the book, she walked around taking in the walls and the pictures and all the things that her father had left behind, including Robbie.

"Hey, kids! Look what i found"
Teresa walked into the room, her red bottoms making a cracking sound on her late husbands wood floors, she carried a white large book in her hands, gold letters with fancy letters spelling out "memories" on the front.
Kataleah perked up and looked at the all too familiar book in her mother's hand.
"No way!"
Robbie almost screamed, he rushed to his mothers side and looked down at the content in her hands.
Teresa flipped to the first page and there displayed were 3 pictures.
One was Kataleah on her 1st day of high school, braces almost spilling out her wide smile and her hands holding as hard as possible to the straps on her book bag.
"Such a nerd"
Robbie scoffed, Kataleah's hand flew in the air landing on her brothers arm making him wince. They both chuckled and glanced over at the rest of the pictures.
The second was Robbie standing besides his prom date, Katherine rubstone, one of the prettiest girls in high school and the third was Kataleah and the English club and there she was, loose brunette curls, braces off and a beautiful glow on her skin and besides her stood the reason for all her glee 'teacher of English grade 11' 'jake gyllenhaal'
Her heart skipped a beat and she sighed, her mother flipped through the next page quickly and Robbie snatched the book once he saw all his football pictures.
"Oh what a stud!"
He wooed as he walked out his fathers studio, Teresa followed after her son shaking her head in disbelief, Kataleah took a last glance at her fathers office and smiled slightly, she walked out and closed the door.
She pressed her palm against the wooden blue door and she sighed.
"I miss you like the sun misses the moon, dad"