*(any [poly or platonic]) massive trigger warning lmao

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by mymiserableromance

by mymiserableromance

Song: King Park - La Dispute

m a s s i v e t r i g g e r w a r n i n g - suicide

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It wasn't his fault, we knew that. Doctors said he'd tried to stop on train tracks.

I thought to slip through the door, I could've entered the room

Instincts hit, and he froze like a ghost. He was going too fast, didn't see the kid in dark clothes.

I felt the burden of murder, it shook the earth to the core

He fled like a jet, to the motel to forget. Cause missed crosswalks and roadside crosses linger like earthquake aftershocks.

Felt like the world was collapsing, then we heard him speak

We fell to our knees outside the door, as the cops swarmed in from the ground floor. We begged and pleaded for him to let us in, but all we could hear was him moaning about damnation and sin.

But, at last, we heard him speak:

Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?

Open up, we have backup.

Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?

But we kept asking ourselves for years to come, where in the hell did he get the gun?

Can I ever be forgiven 'cause I killed that kid?

We could hear your distress, you begged to any god who would listen.

It was an accident, I swear it wasn't meant for him

We make a promise to ourselves that the world will remember, it was an attempt on yourself, not a purposeful slaughter.

And if I turn it on me, if I even it out

Where'd you get the gun? Where did you find it?

Can I still get in or will they send me to hell?

Your words in our heads, forever til death.

Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?