Confidante

If my thoughts had an off switch...

Play: Here's your Perfect by Jamie Miller

Mornings would not be the same without you.

Waking up alone it's been my morning routine ever since and yet

since I entered this camp you made me used to hear your voice or your music's playlist

Ah, right... I have your playlist.

*flashback*

As we we're on our way back to the hotel, I was with Nudee and Chom. I kept scrolling from my social media feed to see the fans labelled these things called "moments". That may lead me to be conscious on what I'm doing in their eyes as what I've observed I did well in saying goodbye to you. But then, P'sun sent a message that you're now on board.

Me: they're now inside the plane

Nudee: Did she text you?

Me: uhmm, no -

...but there's an unexpected message from someone 'cause sending personal messages isn't her main thing.

"P'sun helped me to send this link to you, Here's our playlist I made for all the songs we've listened together. So you won't miss me every morning. So you won't keep searching for the titles anymore. Uhm, please take care hoping to see you before the final show. Sour mangoes for me as you promised. I'll wait for you, Nu~ "

I just smiled recalling how I got this playlist because I kept asking you the title of the songs we listened to together. This is only one of those things you never missed to point out you're paying attention to the details. Unconsciously, again, I felt my heart thump faster than ever before, my cheeks sore from smiling and as I look in the mirror, Am I blushing?

Days get longer,

Mornings get colder

I thank God for the opportunities that kept coming in my way

That kept me busy from feeling what I feel every morning.

I've been wanting to check on you since now we're miles apart

But I know you're doing so well and the staffs will are talking about how you being the charming one in the batch. And especially, our fans kept tagging me whenever you have your live but I don't have to watch it every time because I know that's your way of having a bond with them and they can always gives out the best in you. But one day, notifications won't stop because you missed to eat the sour mangoes here than there because it's too sweet.

This all started when I came to lurk in the live and you found me and since I'm the mood to give us a moment with your fans... I decided to be playful in the comments.

You: Hi there.~~ I heard you won't bring me any mangoes

I see those eyes again and that smile of yours again, why does it makes me feel so weak every time I look at you. Wittingly in the comments, I'll give you a moment for you to submit...Smiling while typing

heyitscha: Say that you miss me and I'll bring many mangoes if I want to.

You: "Say that you miss me and I'll bring many mangoes if I want to." Mmm 'kay... "MISS..."

       ...without missing any minute you instantly said that word. well, for the mangoes. you easily gave in. really, you really get what you want. I stopped for a minute because the comments are flooding and as if we see each other because I acted a little shy because you said it with no pause. What a woman you are! Then in a swift you remembered one certain song that talks about that moment .

....There are moments we can't openly say in public because it may cause some conflicts with If they didn't notice we may not be vocal in expressing our feelings so we tend to express it through songs since we have the same taste I guess. I just smiled the entire time you're singing with your eyes closed as if really feeling the moment despite you're not so well with your based what I see on the live... Oh, I miss having these natural moments of ours...

So before we leave I have to find where P'Sun told me to get your favourite sour mangoes and your favourite sweetened fish sauce and of course the brown sugar.

Nudee: Phi it's so early to buy mangoes...

Me: We have to find it because we'll be late for later. I'll treat you when we arrive in Indo.

Nudee: You said that, Okay watch out Miss Cam-

Me: Okay, shut up, carry this bag for me as I look for the keys.

I think this is one way to let you know that I missed you too and for you to be aware that I will be always be here for you as what I have promised that night. Right? I will be with you as long as you're happy with me.