Confidante

longing?

"Like we said, we don't know what kind of relationship englot will be. It won't go away...And whatever status of (our) relationship is. We'll still be here with you guys forever. Because the most important thing is not depending on our status. "

Charlotte's POV :

I am having jitters because after the night that I stayed in Folke's condo. We never had the chance to talk again. I don't know why this has to be this way, taking a glimpse from afar or scrolling as we came across each other's social media posts. Is this how we must feel if we fall in love with a person that you work with?

"Been thinking so deeply?" it's Mae.

"Hey, are you busy on my birthweek?" she added.

I absentmindedly scrolled my calendar. Although there are times we cross each other sometimes we feel that we're both strangers and just workmates. I want to be near you, I want to know more about you and yet you seem quite distant. Did I do something wrong? Did I miss something that made you feel a little off? I was not that sure of the process of loving women...is this really hard or was I having another drunk dream again?

Uncertainty. That is the only word that is echoing in my mind right now.

When we're together, I feel your warmth but at times we are distant and occupied with appointments and commitment.

The walls between us get thicker.

Is this how loving you are?

Is this the love we promised to have?

If this is like this, It hurts me seeing you happy with someone else again. Not knowing what we really are. We just like maybe the warmth of each other...

Being that occupied, I didn't comprehend what P'Mae was saying as I was receiving hand waves to my face.

"Earth to Charlotte Austin!!!! As I looked at your schedule there will be no schedule for you the next before your locked in camp shoot for your upcoming series.Can you be my wingwoman at a newly opened bar, Every Friday they have that bachelorette and bachelor's night. I just feel so lonely I need someone to lean on...you know...pretty please?"

I heard some of your friends from the organisation who are single went there sometimes now...

"So, what do you say?"

"Uh..."

"Girlie, you need to go out and have some fun some time. Looking at you now, you are like an old woman who wants to stay at home and wait for love to come at your doorstep."

"What if I am?" I absentmindedly answered... but maybe I found her but- She pulled me close...

"Love comes whenever you find it, help me find mine, maybe you'll see yours too!"

"I'm not hungry for love, there are many people who love me!!" My eyes were pointing to the gifts and tokens given by my fans.

Mae seems to understand what I mean. So she just pouted as came closer to me and clasped her hands to mine...

"I have been with you through your journey, please be with me on this one? You don't want your older sister to be an old maid...right?"

Truthfully, I couldn't reach this far without her and I have any confidence without her. I just smiled and nodded slowly. Slowly her pouted lips began to form a happy face.

"I may not be sure but I can find time maybe. It's your special week...As much as I deserve a break.."

"Yes!!! Thank you, my little sis!!! Promise, you won't get bored because it's an open bar wherein it is private because I had booked in the floor with the VVIPs. I might meet some potential boyfriends, maybe a model, a talent, athletes, into pageantry and of course in the entertainment business. I have to prepare the best of the best outfit for me to be attractive. Wait, Since you're vacant tonight I'll call you when I get home to help me pick my outfit! Come on, give your prettiest sister a kiss! "