Confidante

Are you still with me?

Days turned to weeks

The finals is getting closer

The day of seeing you is also getting nearer

But there's always an unexpected stir that caused me to feel uneasy.

Seeing you getting closer to someone, Is what I feared the most.

I don't know why I am feeling like this but it seems like it starts sinking in.

I need to see you,I might need something to confirm some things...

Nudee: Well, someone's giddy to see our Miss Grand Thailand...

Me: Uhm, aren't we all? You said you want to see P'fa?

N: It's a different kind of excitement that I'm having

Tina: Just let her be, Heidi also updated she's coming on the final day. I'm feeling giddy too.

I initiated a high five from Tina and I slapped Dee's arm and sticking my tongue out.

When we arrived at the hotel we slept the whole day since you're out with the candidates for the preparations as the final show, before coming here I decided not to read some comments online since we're gonna meet personally and I don't want to be bothered by it . Night time we were told to get our food on the hallway. 

As we get the food, Chom received a message from P'Sun...

"P'fa wants to see us later on the lobby with her fans, Are you okay with that?" but before I reply

Nudee butted in "She wouldn't miss it girl, She mi---AAAAOuch girl" I pulled her hair and slapped her arm lightly...

She was there with the fans talking with them and I pinch Dee's side giving her a signal to behave and not to cause any scene.

We will only give her the mango she's been craving.

Then there I didn't wanna look straight in her eyes and because I might got lost in her smile.

I just gave her the mangoes.

I can feel you're trying to catch my gaze, but I tried my best not to.

"Here's your sour mango" I wanna talk more but the fans are watching I must watch what I say.

They were teasing. Nudee reacted just in time.

"Just guys, calm down and let them have their moment." You're really an excellent wingman Dee...

"Oh, here's your fish sauce...and the Sugar"

"Seriously, You really know me." Then I move to the side giving Nudee her own moment with you. We missed you seeing this happy.

After a few catch ups, you were reminded of the curfew since we were crowding the lobby part and the fans requested an encouraging message for me but you know, I'm not good at words.

I instantly initiated the move I wanted to do for weeks. I wrapped my arms around your hips, With one arm around my neck. This is what confidante feels like near to home. From that moment you linked your arms around me I took that as a I sign I hugged you tighter because I don't know when will be the next time I can get near to you as you soar higher to get that crown. We both know you need that, no words needed. It's just the zone we're in...

At that moment...we're just happy...

Final Day.

You never faded since day 1 of the contest you were continued shining until you got that crown. Admiring you from afar. Now you're soaring just like what Papa promised. I hope distance won't make our strings unattached.

The thing I feared the most, I slowly witnessed it.