Confidante

the godmother's perspective

Hours later:

Engfa's POV

With all of the speculations and delusions of these trolls on us, I did my own research about the issue and Papa told me to clear this once and for all. I am aware that I may hurt again some fans because on what I'll say and might get attacked by the trolls by quoting a phrase on what I'll say and make it an issue but I want to let them deal with reality. 

It hurts at least it is true. Amidst of  those toxic ones I am aware that those who stay are the people who truly understand the whole situation about our organization and the relationship that we must protect each other without hurting anymore. This is want he wants me to do to neutralize these chaotic scenarios with the fans.

I took time to gather my thoughts and arrange it before I'll speak up, I must relay it because I want to take care of this fan club. They helped us so much to the point that they are my family too. No matter how much I want to take care of them I gotta face them with reality. This FC began because of a genuine friendship and real feelings unlike other ships that they ship in the entertainment industry. Only the people who really knew me understood that I conceal my real feelings because of work but my eyes will never lie. Gotta wear my glasses to avoid the fans noticing.

"Englot will never sink because It's a love that doesn't have to be girlfriends or anything. We're sisters that will support and love each other like this forever. People keep saying this and that (englot ship had sunk) No, it won't sink people just imagining things, making drama."

Days went really fast, the funny thing is we have never spoken like personal but your name will always be involved in between my interviews...how can I move on? (author's note: invisible red strings are still there hihi) They really asked how our feelings were real or if it was just for the fans. I came to think of it now as well, was it really that called fanservice? Real fans are aware that genuine feelings are shared in the englot pair because we both really felt there was something. Yet, I remember we do not have personal talk about this, it was only the feelings felt. 

Now, the issue keeps on arising and keeps on tagging me because trolls are doing their job to distract or trigger me. I need a breather. I have that event with Faye in which it is a party that I really longed for after those prim and proper interviews. I can easily grab that opportunity to set myself loose.

I was backstage drinking in a tumbler that may look like a juice but I was drinking it like a thirsty dog running in the desert. Prepping up to be the next on stage, as I hype myself up. I felt a tap on my shoulder. It's Faye. One of the pageant queens that I look up to since she's lowkey likes women while joining the pageant, she just kept it to herself and won a title.

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Faye's POV

Hi, I'm Faye, well the MGT staff...I mean Vanessa contacted me personally to attend an event.

~flashback:

Vanessa: Hey long time no contact!! I missed you!

Faye: come to the salon, when you're free

Vanessa: When will I be free?

//We just both laughed cause she really dedicated her life to that organisation since. She was also the one who really consoled me whenever I started to become anxious and as I tried to keep my identity she just gave me the smile and assurance that she knows that's why I can't let go of this organization. It's because the people behind left an impact in my pageant journey.