Confidante

The capturing

~~Hello darkness, goodbye light//I'll kiss you close and hold you tight~~ (Yellow Lights by Harry Hudson)

I called the boss if I could borrow the schedule of you over the night before I have my full training and rehearsals. He only replied to a thumbs up message. The boss is weird at times.

"Oh, Phi..do you know?" She rested her head on my lap. I was sitting as I rested my back on my bed. I looked at her and moved my head horizontally. "Our schedules are cleared today!!!You can watch all the cartoons all day long."

I can really tell the boss is a shipper, "Oh, that's good news! I'll call the first Sun."

I went out to the veranda, close the sliding door. I tried to call him to prepare some things for me to buy a bouquet of flowers and to arrange the van to the bar that I will remember. I texted Daad also for the band to come later...

I was trying to lure you, that I was making a tiktok drafts outside but I am really trying to memorize a song that's been on my mind for a while now...

It's close to the time, I noticed Heidi kept calling me non stop... I didn't answer because I was gathering my strength to ask you out...But Heidi decided to call you, I grabbed my phone and went inside the bathroom. I kept my distance near the door so that I could hear your response but before you answered Heidi's invitation...here goes nothing. I closed my eyes and hit send...

H: Hello, Sis?? Are you there? Why are you smiling , what did you see? Are you admiring me? Is Heilot sailing?

C: Oh God, No. You flirt. Can I do a rain check? Invite your Tina you won't need me in pursuing her anymore she likes you more than I am.

H: You're such a tease! You just want also to be with- -

As you end the call, I get out of the bathroom.

C: Where are you taking me tonight P'fa?

I try to act casual but I can sense that you're showing your Murek side na "J-Just ww-ear something casual so people won't notice us. I've booked a place."

~~If that's alright with you //I'm coming back if that's alright with you//So come on back if that's alright with you~~

So when we reached the venue I told you to go up first but little did you know I followed you and took a photo when you tried to capture the skies and the moon tonight. As you were amazed by the set up we began to set the stage. Then there's the spotlight and that's our cue as I sing the part that I've been trying to memorize...

//You're the coffee that I need in the morning/ You're my sunshine in the rain when it's pouring/Won't you give yourself to me/Give it all,//oh/ I just wanna see/I just wanna see how beautiful you are/You know that I see it/I know you're a star/Where you go I follow/No matter how far/If life is a movie/Oh you're the best part/ oh oh oh/You're the best part, oh oh oh/Best part//

After the song you just clapped your hands and cheered even a little screamed. I was shy when you did that, then Sun gave me the bouquet of sunflowers and gave it to you...I kept on looking down cause I know this is it...I explained what triggered everything...I'm trying to stop myself from breaking...

"... These past days, I am the P'fa you used to know, after that interview it felt like I was washed over with a cold water..."

You just held my hand and that gesture made me look into your eyes

"It's okay, Phi, I'm not in a rush. No need to pressure yourself to open up..."

I looked up to the sky and took a deep breath. Dad please be with me. I held your hand and began to gather my strength to speak well. " I can, I can do it. I knew you believed in me. You were there, I was the one who left you. I'm sorry Nu~... Thank you for waiting for me to be back. I'm doing the best that I can, for me , for my family....My dream..and My dad...I just missed him so much. I don't want to lose him that early. I want him to see me achieve the dreams we dreamt together."

I paused and I looked at you , I am really thankful for you for staying ... I just smiled and continued...

"Whooo, Okay...now, as I'm on my way to healing. Miss Grand was my fate and Destiny allowed me to meet you, I saw my dad's heart in you. I felt from the start you were there for me. You're an angel in disguise. He led you to meet me...Before I leave for Indo..Uhm, I-I just want to thank you for believing in me. I won't let you down. Thank you Nu~~"

After I opened it up there's something in me that loosened up. It feels like chains are gone. All we just really need is being able to overpower what you feel inside. As we had our dinner we just enjoyed the music and the food, then I saw Sun tapping his watch. We must go home. But before going down, you stood still then I offered my hand...

"Phi, Since you will sleep in the suite tonight. Can I hug you for tonight" I tried to look at you but you just hugged me a little tighter. I just don't know what to say but I know I am now ready for the next step.

"I'll be back with a crown okay?"

"Just be back here as you are."