Various Oneshots

Cross Vent fic

I feel like god is testing my mental health today so I needed comfort character Cross to the rescue.
Trigger warning- vent fic, bad days, implied depression, thoughts of self harm, suicidal thoughts, Hurt/ self comfort
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It wasn't even ten o'clock and Cross was already wishing the day would end.

The day started terribly and his mind wouldn't shut up about it potentially getting worse.

The black cloud that followed him was pouring on him today and he was sure whatever fucked up creator was out there was laughing at his misery.

He had cried a day's worth of tears in an hour.

He couldn't help but hold back more tears as his intrusive thoughts took over his mind.

He could easily stop the pain, and end his suffering. He didn't have to deal with his negativity like this. Slamming his skull into a brick wall hearing the satisfying crack, and watching his blood drip.

Physical pain was a great way to stop these feelings.

Negativity was hard to deal with when you were taught how to do it properly.

The worse part was the day wasn't over, so he couldn't go to his room- his safe place and let it all out. He had to stay working while he struggled not to think about how he wouldn't feel this way if he was dead.

He tried to distract himself from those thoughts.

Reminding himself that today is a bad day not a bad life. He shouldn't make big decisions just because of one bad day.

This too shall pass.

Everything will be okay when he is done working. He can go home and just cry if he needs to or just sit and talk about it to his lover.

He had to be brave and make it through today to get better, he knew that.

He knew he was brave and strong for making it this far.

And lastly, he knew when he couldn't be brave when he couldn't face the world, his lover would be there to help him.

"Things will get better."

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Hello everyone, I apologize but I'm still not going to be posting often. I'm going through a lot right now a probably until the end of the month at the very least. I want all of you to understand that things do get better and you have to believe in yourself, don't give in, it will be okay. Make sure you eat today, and take your meds if you have to, and drink water and just relax you're doing great! I hope you all have a great day and a wonderful night take care of yourselves, I know it's hard but you're so strong for making it this far, don't give up now. Things will get better.