my bestfriend is the alpha

My Own Point of View, and It is actually a Mess

Seth's POV:

Everything was a blur. I'm close to losing control. I lost my kid. Nikki is mated to a rogue, the same person I despise most at the moment. My bestfriend, my mate is even defending this guy. Nikki was in a coma. I almost lost Angie. What is wrong with me?

"Seth..." Angie whispered. "Your father asked me to look for you, he's worried, well, they are all worried," she added, sitting beside me on our secret hideaway.

"And you?" I asked her. Do I not worry her?

"I'm not worried...I'm scared. You don't know what's running on my head right now," Angie sighed.

Am I the cause of her fears? Angie was scared of me?

"Why?"

"I don't even know. I wanted to be your beta all my life and fate made me your mate," Angie said.

"What are you trying to say?" I asked.

"I guess we both need time and space to adjust on some things," she said.

"Are you breaking up with me?" I asked looking at her.

"We were never together Seth, I mean yes we are mates, and we will forever be mates, but I want you to choose me for me, not because I am your mate."

"Angie, you are important to me, what do you want me to do?"

"Seth, there is a difference between needing a person because you love them and loving the person because you need them." Angie held my hand and squeezed it. "You need time to sort things out, I need space from all of this."

She stood up and walked away from me. Then there she goes, the one that got away. I shouted so hard, I fucking shouted so bad for everything. For the first time in my life, I hated being me. I just lay there for hours looking at the sky, Angie and I used to do these when we were kids.

All I ever wanted is to have a simple life, free of complications, peace among creatures like us, have a family perhaps 5 kids or even more, be the alpha, spend time with my wife, beat Angie during sparring exercises, then lay on top of her, kiss her, make out with her, have sex with her all throughout the night.

Oh fucking shit Seth!

I did love Nikki, but because I loved Nikki that time. I stood up and ran as fast as I could. No, she will not get away from me. It has always been Angie. My life was worth living because of her.

I was panting when I got to their house, I opened the door and went upstairs to her room. I just barged in and said, "Angie, I love you. It has always been you."

"I love you too Seth," Tyrone said. "She's not here anymore."

"Where is she? What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Packing her things. Here, she left a note," Tyrone handed me the letter and walked out of the door.

Seth,

You will always be my bestfriend, but I needed to do these for myself. I'll be staying with Carlos and Nikki, I'll help them fix the pack. It would take me quite some time but I needed to do things on my own. Try to first check on how you really feel for me.

Angie

I crumpled the paper, got out of Angie's room. "Paul! Paul!"

"What's with the rush?" Paul came in running inside Angie's living room.

"Help me, get Angie back."