𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖑𝖔𝖜𝖊𝖗

1: Ren's life

Ren Greens:

You know the saying where life isn't fair. Well, I think life has it's ways. I am just saying, but you know that saying right. Well, my life is kind of different. I am 18 years old non-binary male. Well, I don't like being called a boy. But I like being non-binary, well, my name is Ren Greens. I am the second eldest child in my family, the oldest in our family is Leah, my adopted older sister. My parents thought they could never get pregnant, then they adopted Leah. But until my mom got pregnant with me. Turns out the doctors were wrong. Okay back to the story.

I am straight A's student at my college, all the teachers like me because I have a very high IQ. Like my parents said, I am in my second year of college. Yes, I did skip grades to get here. My older sister is in her last year. Leah is my best friend as well, but I have two other best friends, or had. Aisha used to be my best friend until she changed one day, then she became mean to me and Leah. Then she became my rival after that day. Caleb, who is my long time crush, he is too busy with sports. So it's just me and Leah, we both share a dorm room. Yep, we love the college we go to. We really do.

But I miss home sometimes, where there is ocean and the palm trees swaying with the wind. I miss Seaside, Oregon. But the college me and Leah go is in Connecticut. And we love to go to the beaches in Connecticut, it's remind me-

" Ren, when are you coming? Are we going to Starbucks or what? " Leah shouted across the dorm room. " I will, I am getting ready, lee lee, " I called back, I heard her sigh. I left my room and I went to see what my sister is so impatience. I can clearly tell she has no patience at all. Then I started to cough up blood and petals again. I went to the bathroom to throw up the petals again. I still don't know why I am coughing blood and petals. It's been happening since last night and I sighed. I took some pills before I left the dorm room.

I saw my sister was tapping her foot as she leaned on the car. " Took you long enough, " my sister being so impatient she is. We got into the car and Leah started up the car. " Did you get a call from mom and dad yet? " I asked to her and she drove the car. She lower the volume of the radio, " No, not yet. It's almost mom's birthday in 4 months, I got us tickets for the flight to Connecticut to Oregon, " she kept her eyes on the road.

Mom and dad is on the other side of U.S. But we had to go here to get best education. They said it was best for us, we understand why we had to go here for reasons I guess. In college, I take a lot of nature classes and mythology and the mandatory ones as well. I did have a nickname as I was growing up, I loved flowers so much. I called sometimes blooming flower, just because I liked flowers, and I still do. This is my life after all.

" We are here, Ren, " I guess I zoned out. We got out of the car and we went into Starbucks. I went to sat down and I let Leah get the drinks. I still don't know why I am coughing up blood and flower petals. I sighed as I scroll through Tiktok, there was a lot cool trend on Tiktok. But I am not Tiktoker like Leah is, she has like 3.5K followers on her account. I mean she does a lot of Tiktok trends. I am more like a Snapchat kind of person. I missed my best friends, but the only left is Leah.

I don't know why the two changed, one is me and Leah's rival and the other is too busy. I still have a crush on Caleb, I love him since we were in 3rd grade. But I am sure he doesn't like me back. Aisha became too popular and she started to be mean to us except to Caleb for some reason. I wondered still.

" Here is your drink, your favorite, frappuccino."

" Thanks, Lee lee, " I thanked her and she is the only sibling I have left.

Our other two younger siblings, who were twin died because the both had leukemia. I got a tattoo with both of their names on my arm to remind me they are still with us. They were just 8 years old when they both die. I missed them, I really do. 

" Hey Ren, are you thinking about Louis and Lily again? " Leah asked to me with a concerned look on her face. I nod slowly as I drank my frappuccino.

" They are in a better place now, come one. They don't want you to be sad, they want you to be happy, " Leah told to me, and I smiled. 

Then we left Starbucks and we went back to the dorm room. After we made it back, I went to my room, and I went my room. I stared at the letter on my desk. I am going to confess to Caleb, tomorrow. I hope he does like me back, but I have feeling he doesn't. But stay positive, Ren. I decided to work on my assignment on science. We were allow to do partners, but I decided to do alone. Caleb wanted to do the assignment with me, but I said no because I know he was going to be busy with sports. Plus, we don't talked as much as before, I understand that. Really just me and Leah.

" So, what are you doing on? " Leah asked to me, and she turned my chair around. " I am researching on machines, " I looked at her with my pencil on my lip. She nodded, " Nice, so when are you going to confess to Caleb? " She smirked at me, and I rolled my eyes. 

" Tomorrow, at the water fountain. You know that place, " I answered and she was squealing with joy. " Then you two can date and you get the rest, " she smiled with raise eyebrow. I hope, but I didn't tell her that I am sick. I don't know why at all, " So, how are you and your girlfriend? " I asked to her. She looked at me with the ' have you forgot' look on her face. 

" Oh, sorry. I forgot you and Chole broke up, I am sorry, " I apologized to her, and she laughed a bit. " Oh, good thing I broke up with her, she's bitch, if you ask me, " she laughed and I was confused. " I thought, she was nice, " I thought aloud. Leah kept laughing, " Turns out she was a bitch because when she was near people she was nice. But when she was with me, she's bitch. Don't worry, I am fine. "

I am worried about my sister, she's all I got. Before Louis and Lily, we were all close. But when they both died because we couldn't pay for the treatment. I am mad at myself, if I took that job offer they could be still alive by now. But I turned it down, now they are gone because of me. But my parents and Leah thinks it is not my fault. They are wrong, it's my fault. 

I sighed, Leah looked at me. " Thinking about them again, it's not your fault, Ren. You made the choice, we don't blame you." I looked at her, she was still wrong. " I know I wanted to be a writer, but I turned down that offer. That's could have save them, that will get the treatment they needed. But I just turned down, " I told her and she groaned. 

" You made the right chose, though. If you took it, you will busy like Caleb is. Do you want to be like him?" Leah asked to me and that got me thinking. " But I think of others before me, " I answered and she was about to leave my room. " You know I miss them too, blooming flower, " Leah called me by my nickname. I felt a burning sensation in my throat. I am going to vomit again. Oh no!