𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖑𝖔𝖜𝖊𝖗

9: The promise

The next few days....

Ren Greens:

I kept throwing up blood and flower petals into the toilet. I wiped my mouth of the blood and I flushed the toilet. I left the bathroom and I took my pills. I needed to get to class in time, I gathered my things for the classes. Then I left the dorm, I went to my classes. Most of my classes is in one side of the campus, but some are on the other side. Which I am going to go, I have art classes first.

I made as usual, and I took my seat. Also Caleb took this class as well, I do not know why. He did like art like me. But unlike me, I do a lot of art pieces in my spare time that take a long while. I never talk to him in this class anymore. After what the schedule he got, he was too busy to be hang out with me and Leah. Really it's only been me and Leah, at least we had each other. I took  out my project. I was working on my rough sketch and I heard some footsteps. I glance up and I saw it was Caleb. I still have a crush on him.

But he doesn't like me back because how I know, I have the hanahaki disease. So I kept drawing on my sketch. " Why you never talk to me anymore, Ren? " I heard Caleb's voice from behind. I was silent, I never talk to Caleb. I gulped and I half turned my body to face him. " You broke our promise, Caleb. That's why, " I answered as I turned back and I kept working on my artwork. Then I felt a tap on my shoulder, but I ignored it and I focused on my work. Then I felt a shadow loomed over me. I glance up, " What do you want, Caleb? " I demanded to him and he frowned at me.

Caleb looked down on me, " Look I know I changed. I never had the time to hang out with you. But why are you avoiding me and ignoring me? Plus, you never talk to me as much as you used to, why is that? " He looked at me with concerned look. I kept my poker face on, " I don't want to bother you. Plus you broke our promise, so what is the point? You were the only person who I CAN trust, but you left me and Leah. Because of your fucked up schedule, I never bother. I tried to talk to you on the first few months, but you said you never wanted to be bother. You shouted at me, so I never bother you ever again. You knew I was sensitive to shouting and loud sounds. You broke our promise, you promised you will be there for me and protect me. But I was stupid for trusting you, I still remember that day when you shouted at me, " I answered with straight expression. I thought if I can confess to him, maybe it will set things right. But I was wrong.

Caleb looks astonished, I still remember that day. He was talking to his new friends, I met some of them, they are nice and kind. But they were shocked when Caleb shouted at me.

I was walking to math class that day. I just finished talking with Leah and her boxing training. She loved her courses, I knew that. She is going to be what she wanted to be, a female boxer fighter. She loved boxing as a child, then I saw Caleb. Maybe I can try talk to him. Then Aisha pulled my arm, she changed. " I wouldn't talk to Caleb if I were you. It seems he is too busy, Ren. You know that he never liked you, he was pretending to be your friend out of pity, you fucking tranny, " she bullied me, as usual. I am not new to this.

" You don't know that, Aisha, " I protested and she rolled her eyes. Then she sighed, she turned to go, " You don't came crying since I warned you, " then she walked off, and I ignored her warning. I do wish I did took her warning seriously after I learned the truth. 

" Hey guys, " I greeted the guys and they all greeted back except Caleb. I wondered why, " Hey Caleb, are you okay? " I asked as I put my hand on his shoulder. Then he pushed my hand away, " I am fine, can you leave me alone for once? " He was mad, he was never mad at me. I just wanted to talk to him, I've been trying for months since the beginning of College. Caleb's friends looked worried, " What's wrong with Caleb? " I asked to Max who was Caleb's teammate. 

" I don't know, really Ren. He really was like this because his stressful schedule, " Max whispered, and Caleb looked at me for some reason. " Can you just leave me alone for once, Ren? Gosh you are annoying, " he said, and I was stunned. What he never told me that. " But we've been friends since we're kids. What about our promise? " I looked at him, but he was mad at me for some reason.

" That promise was childish, what do you even think about the past, Ren? That promise was made when we were in grade 3. What is the point of that promise? " He demanded to me, and his friends didn't looked happy. " Bro, you made a promise with this guy. But are you trying to break it and your friendship with this guy. They are really kind and nice, " Max backed me up, and I smiled a bit.

" Oh my gosh, guys. You are back up for this fucking tranny, " Caleb shouted, and he never called me that in my life. Then he started to shouted, I covered my eyes. All those memories of my parents arguing and shouting are coming. I started go into distress, but I could hear Caleb shouting at me. " You are fucking overdramatic tranny person, Ren. I don't know why I become friends with you. I did it out of pity, gosh why did I really became friend with you. Plus you should be called an withering flower " he shouted, and I broke. I was crying, I uncovered my ears. He called me those things, am I the problem? I think I am.

" So, th-that what you think of me, fucking overdramatic tranny person. So that's what you think of me, okay, I will leave you alone, forever, " I turned and I knew Caleb wasn't sorry. He never sorry for anything when he protected me from bullies. I guess he was right, and I ran right out of there. I heard them talking as I ran.

" Man, that wasn't so cool, " or " Dude, why did you shout at them? You know they are sensitive to loud sounds and shouting."

I kept running, and I passed by Aisha and her group. They were all laughing, maybe at me. If I took Aisha's warning, maybe I wouldn't be like this. Gosh, I am idiot for believing Caleb, the one person I trusted, the one person who was there for me, and the one person who promised to protect me, but he broke it. I can't believe I trusted that motherfucker. Why did I made a promise with him? Without realizing I bumped into someone and I fell onto my ass. The other person as well, " I am so sorry, " I apologized immediately to person.

" It's okay, Ren, " I heard Leah's voice, and I lunged into her arms. " Woah, are you okay, Ren? What happened? " She started to asked questions to me. I was crying so she didn't listen what I said. " Calm down, then we will talk okay, " she soothed me by humming my favorite song, mom used to sing to me. She was humming Rises the moon, and when I calmed down. I started to explained to her what happened.

" Caleb called me a overdramatic tranny person, " I answered and she was shocked and mad. " He called you what!?!?! I will beat the shit of Caleb for being a fucking idiot. How about we go back to our dorm room and I will cook your favorite comfort food? " She asked to me and I nodded in respond. We got up and I turned my head, I saw Caleb with his hand out. " I'm sorry, " I heard him say, but Leah pulled me away from there.

" You still remember that, " Caleb was surprised, as I finished explaining. I nodded, " Then why you called me to the fountain yesterday? " He asked to me and I was silent. I didn't want to tell him the truth, but I can't. Instead I lied to him, I hated it when I lied. " Oh maybe I forgot to meet you, I was so busy with my class work. But we should act normal because most of the class is here, " I lied with a fake smile.

Then he went back to his seat. The teacher came into the class, " Good morning class, and today we will continued with our projects!"