𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖑𝖔𝖜𝖊𝖗

17: Song

Ren Greens:

I was busy working on my other assignments. I had to finished like two more, but hey I am almost finish them. I've been holding in my coughs, so I won't vomit blood or flowers again. I sighed as I was working on my music assignment and I need to play an instrument. I mean I can play the guitar, but I haven't in a while. I was in my room after all and I did bring guitar before we left Seaside. 

Maybe I can play the guitar, but the teacher said we have to practice the song for the assignment. Then play it in front of the class and sing, I stopped singing when Louis and Lily died. They were the reason I loved singing, but I gave it up. After they both died, maybe this once I will sing. I will to my closet and I grabbed my guitar. Now I need to choose a song, then I remember this one song I liked.

She was 19 with a baby on the way
On the East-side of the city, she was working every day
Cleaning dishes in the evening, she could barely stay awake
She was clinging to the feeling that her luck was gonna change

And, 'cross town she would take the bus at night
To a one-bedroom apartment, and when she'd turn on the light
She would sit down at the table, tell herself that it's alright
She was waiting on the day she hoped her baby would arriveShe'd never be alone
Have someone to hold
And when nights were cold
She'd say

The world's not perfect, but it's not that bad
If we got each other, and that's all we have
I will be your mother, and I'll hold your hand
You should know I'll be there for you
When the world's not perfect
When the world's not kind
If we have each other, then we'll both be fine
I will be your mother, and I'll hold your hand

You should know I'll be there for you

They were 90 and were living out their days
On the West-side of the city next to where they got engaged
They had pictures on the walls of all the memories that they'd made
And though life was never easy, they were thankful that they stayed
With each other, and though some times were hard
Even when she made him angry he would never break her heart
No, they didn't have the money to afford a fancy car
But they never had to travel 'cause they'd never be apart

Even at the end
Their love was stronger than
The day that they first met
They'd say

The world's not perfect, but it's not that bad
If we got each other, and that's all we have
I will be your lover, and I'll hold your hand
You should know I'll be there for you
When the world's not perfect
When the world's not kind
If we have each other, then we'll both be fine
I will be your lover, and I'll hold your hand

You should know I'll be there for you

You should know I'll be there for you

I'm 23, and my folks are getting old
I know they don't have forever and I'm scared to be alone
So I'm thankful for my sister, even though sometimes we fight
When high school wasn't easy, she's the reason I survived
I know she'd never leave me and I hate to see her cry
So I wrote this verse to tell her that I'm always by her side
I wrote this verse to tell her that I'm always by her side
I wrote this verse to tell her that

The world's not perfect, but it's not that bad
If we got each other, and that's all we have
I will be your brother, and I'll hold your hand
You should know I'll be there for you
When the world's not perfect
When the world's not kind
If we have each other, then we'll both be fine
I will be your brother, and I'll hold your hand
You should know I'll be there for you

You should know I'll be there for you

As I finished the song, I heard clapping. I saw it was Leah, " I never hear you sing in a while, Ren. That was beautiful song, blooming flower, " she compliment me and I sighed. I looked away from her, " I have to present this to the college on the day of the Open house for our parents. They will surprised I sing again, " I told to her and she sighed. I didn't look at her and I knew I haven't sang a song in two years. Like TWO YEARS!?!?!

I looked at my guitar and I need to tune it. So I decided to tune it right now and I felt Leah hugged me. " You will do great, as long you take those meds. You are fine, you will get through it. Plus, I am taking more shifts because we need the money. I will not lose you as well," she explained, then I felt pain rising in my throat. I put my guitar down and I ran to the bathroom. Then I throw up in the toilet, blood and flowers. The disease keeps getting worse and worse, but due my immune system is strong. I will have deal with this for three more months.

Then we will get the treatment and I will be fine. I know, I will be fine. Leah came to the bathroom with meds in her hand. She gave them to me and she went to get some water. Then she came back with some water. I took my meds with my water. " You will be fine, your next appointment in a few weeks. You know that, you are going to be fine. I promise, I won't lose you. I don't want to like we did with Louis and Lily. You need to make the most of the memories before you get that surgery."

I smiled at her words and she was right. She is right, most times. I mean she is right, she does give the best advice for people. I think I will sing on Open house, maybe I can surprised mom and dad. I want to surprised mom more importantly, the day of the Open house is on her birthday. She will love it, " Okay, we need to get back to class because of the time. Our break is almost up, " I explained to her and she nodded. I went to get my things for my next class, but my next class is music. Fuck, plus I have two assignments left. Don't worry, Ren, those are due in two weeks. But I like handed those in earlier and I will take them to class with me.

I left the dorm and Leah already left for her boxing classes. She will be one day professional boxer. That is her dream, mine is different from hers, I want to be writer or public speaker. I can be both if I try. If I try.