Losing You | 𝘽𝙀𝙊𝙈𝙅𝙐𝙉

𝙄 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙'𝙫𝙚 𝙠𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪

Sookai 4

There it was again. Another long pause.
Soobin was ready to murder himself in cold blood once he gets home until he heard Kai ask something he'd never thought about before.

Do you think if he ever showed up in your life again, you'd be friends with him? Would he? He didn't know. He was told beomgyu is never coming back to New York, one of the reason he agreed to the job when mr. Choi reached out to him. But a part of him wanted him to. But he didn't know why.

I think..
That question would be something more like, would he want to be friends again soobin didn't explain that further.

Did you like this guy? Kai asked with his eyebrows raised.
What ? No. He was
just a friend. He stuttered. Oh another long pause

So..you're not..?
No kai felt a little something in his chest that he didn't really get
I mean I am, yeah.
but not him. I didn't like him.

Oh thankgod Kai let out a small laugh which made soobin confused cuz when I asked yeonjun Hyung to ask you out i totally forgot I should've at least confirmed like what if he wou-

What the fuck? Soobin looked at Kai with an unamused face which made Kai a little scared you asked yeonjun to ask me out? Why on earth would you do that?

Well he was just-
I wanted him to find someone and you looked perfect soobin internally blushed
So I thought well here's me being a good friend. Until I realised the best thing I could've done is let him be and be there for him to make him laugh

Soobin made a tch sound. Well you should thank yeonjun he didn't agree to that bs cuz I'm not interested in him and getting your friend rejected doesn't exactly count to being a good friend soobin said as he gave a smirk to the younger and got a smack in the arm in return.

What's wrong with yeonjun? He's smart and good at his job ? And major one, he's hot. Kai raised his eyebrows.

Do you have a boyfriend?

No. Soobin said that quicker than he usually would. He's just not my type okay?
Oh.
Yeah
So who's your type?

Soobin looks at Kai. Well?
Soobin wouldn't ever dare to do what he's about to but as he said infront of Kai his actions and words come out faster than he thinks them. Kai he said in the deepest voice he's ever had yeah?

Kai was about to say something until he saw soobin lean forward. something about the gaze soobin had didn't feel right, it wasn't like what he saw a few minutes ago, there was something. Something he'd seen in his mothers eyes who couldn't let go of her love for her father and ended up getting killed by him, something he'd seen in yeonjun's eyes who miserably waited for his love to return , that gaze felt so good yet it scared him. Just as soobin was about to lock their lips together, Kai Pushed him away. No
Please Kai said with a trembling voice. He paused looking at soobin with hopeful eyes as if to tell him not to leave even when he's asking him to. we can't
Kai doesn't realise why he's doing what he's doing. But-
Kai? Soobin attempted to place his hands around Kai's cheek until he heard the younger say something that sounded more like shattering of a glass.

Im seeing someone he lied. Soobin looked away from him as he felt out himself getting an unexplainable feeling. He felt embarrassed. So much that he even forgot the younger's words from not too long ago when he said the only person I know is yeonjun Hyung

Im sorry.
Excuse me he walked up and left as Kai felt himself getting a feeling like he lost something that would finally take him out of the darkness he seems to keep slipping back in. But he was still scared and he didn't know what of.