Unexpected Love

4. Suga Going Solo

Finally! Suga's album has been released! If Jimin's solo album was hot, Suga took me to another level of ecstasy. This guy was driving me crazy! Every time I listened to his music, I would get wet between my thighs and feel the urge to please myself! So just imagine me trying to find some alone time right in the middle of my day so I could please myself. I was losing it!

Also... A world tour??? I had to go!! I called Aby and told her that she was going with me on a trip to New York for a week, all expenses on me, including tickets to Agust D D-Day concert. She was so excited! I slowly turned her into an ARMY through time, so she was my only partner in crime when it came to BTS, and this was going to be the perfect BFF trip of our lives.

Suga going solo and releasing his album was something that had me totally hyped! He was finally completing his Agust D trilogy, one of the main parts of my investigation. I was so anxious to listen to it! Every time I watched Suchwita I went crazy just watching him for what he is, an ordinary human being with past issues like everybody else, moving on with his life, finally leaving all anger behind.

I must confess all the feelings and body reactions the news provoked in me. I felt chills, anxiety, and heat going up and down my body, I even felt my mouth water. Being a scientist in the brain field and having these reactions is not good, it confused the fuck out of me every time and sent me right to a couple of extra sessions with my therapist, and he laughed every time I told him I needed a Suga intervention. I'm not over my Bae, and will never be, and my therapist said This Suga thing was okay, as long as I could still control my reality. I still had my alone time with him in my imagination every fucking night, and sometimes daydreamed with him during my breaks and sessions. Oh, I forgot to mention that I began working as a therapist, I needed to keep my mind busy and by that time our investigation was going just fine.

During one of my nights with Pablo, I was way into my Suga fantasy, I imagined it was him caressing and sucking my nipples, that it was his erection I was feeling inside of me, and that it was him moaning softly near my ear. Hell! Pablo's voice was just like Suga's, and he even used some expressions like Suga... his so lovely "Aish!" (Ok, maybe that expression was my fault). That "Aish!" triggered something in me, and I totally lost myself in my fantasy and whispered, "Ah, Yoongi... jagi!"

Oh dear... poor Pablo. He looked like an ice bucket was dropped on him.  He just stayed still as I felt his erection die inside me.

Fuck Pablo! What's happening? Please don't tell me you are growing feelings for me!

I just couldn't think straight and didn't know what to say, so I just tried to embrace him and whisper a soft "I'm sorry."

After that day, Pablo started avoiding me, and it was something I didn't like at all. I liked my time with him, we could actually talk freely, and that was so liberating for me. I tried reaching him one more time, but he completely cut me off. So now I was alone, again, with only my growing fantasies of Yoongi, and waiting for his release date.