Unexpected Love

11. That Tense Sexual Moment

We stared at each other for an eternity, at least that's how it felt. He kept looking at my lips, my hair, my breasts, my eyes. I kept staring at his eyes, his lips, his inner thighs. When we crossed our looks again, he slowly stood up and started walking towards me. He gently sat next to me, took a strand of my hair between his gorgeous long fingers, placed it behind my ear, and whispered.

—"Bella, you got me in some kind of spell, I can't stop thinking about you. I picture you lying next to me as I caress your tattoos, Fuck! Your tattoos! But... I don't want to caress only your tattoos; I want to run my fingers and my lips all over your body. I just want you. I'm sorry if I'm so forward with all of it, but that's how I am."

I was breathing so fast I couldn't control myself. He was so close, he didn't move a bit away from me like he was just waiting for me to move. So, I did. I slightly turned to him, softly looked at him, and closed my eyes. He then moved his nose to the side of my neck, inhaled really hard, and moaned. I tilted my head to the other side and he moved even closer as he started caressing my collarbone... just a small, tender touch. I was in heaven!

—"Ah jagi... your aroma, your skin, you!" — I was still speechless; I couldn't believe Yoongi was caressing my neck. It felt so good! — "Do you want me to stop? You're so still and tense, is this wrong?"

—"No, it's not wrong. I'm tense because I still can't believe this is happening." — I moved away a bit because I felt the need to tell him about my dreams... with him. Please don't judge me crazy, I still don't know why I felt that need. —"I want to tell you something."

—"It's ok. I understand, I moved way too fast on you. You don't need to tell me anything." — He moved back and looked sad somehow.

—"Oh dear! Nooo! It's not like that... believe me, it's not like that. I really liked that you 'moved way too fast' on me. What I wanted to tell you is that I'm still in disbelief about all of this, because... well, because... I've been dreaming about this moment for so long! You have been my constant dream after I lost my husband. When I started to feel the need for a man figure in my life to complete me, I started thinking of you. I would listen to your music, to 'First Love', 'Set Me Free', 'Snooze', 'SDL'... and would lose myself in your voice. And now you're here, I'm here, and I just can't believe it. But I do want this to happen! Oh please Yoongi-ssi, make it happen!"

He looked at me with such tenderness and joy as he softly giggled, placed his hands on my cheeks,

— "So, I do have your permission to finally kiss you?" — I shyly responded with a soft "yes"... and just like that, he gave me the so longing kiss. He then moved once again to my collarbone as he slid his beautiful long hands under my blouse to caress my back. My God! His perfect hands! I had my hands on his neck and started moving my fingers through his soft, thick hair. The kissing became more intense, yet still in a soft way, and without stopping he slowly moved his hands to my breasts as he grabbed them firmly.

—"Ah Bella, I just want to see you... truly see all of you, please. Can we go to my room?"

He stood up without giving me a chance to answer and opened his hand in front of me, I placed my hand in his, stood up, and let him lead the way.

There we were, in his suite with an amazing view of the night city lights. He wanted to close the shades, but I asked him to leave them open, I liked the feeling of being lost in the lights of such a big city, being lost in his eyes. He nodded, moved towards the bed, and stood there silently, making a gesture for me to walk to him. When I was in front of him, he gently started unbuttoning my blouse as he kept his eyes fixated on my breasts held only by my red bra.  Then he pulled his shirt over his head and dropped it on the floor. I was feeling a rush of heat running from my neck down to my inner thighs as I let him pull down my jeans, he was on his knees looking up at me, waiting for me to take my feet out of them. I slowly took out my left foot, then my right, and stood still once again. He looked down at my feet and moaned.