The Beautifully Tragic Life of Kassandra Snape

chapter 16- argument

I am awoken the next day by a pounding on the door which causes the baby next to me to stir and wake with cries, I quickly scoop her up in my arms before I make my way towards the door. Upon unlocking it, I'm nearly hit back by the door.

"Watch it." I growl as Lorenzo storms in followed by Aimie and Draco.

"Oh you have some nerve!" He exclaims. A look of pure disbelief forms on my face, while he combs his fingers through his hair. Well someone got up on the wrong side of the bed, I think to myself.

"Aimie, can you please take Ara into the bathroom, think she could use a bath. I don't want her near any arguing." I turn to my best friend who nods with a smile on her face as I pass her over and they dissapear into the bathroom.

"What's up with you?" I question as soon as I can no longer see Arabelle.

"What the fuck have you done Kass? And you dared to lecture me about responsibility? You're a fucking liar." He spits, not even looking at me. I turn to Draco who tries to send me a soft smile, despite the situation.

"You really think that I chose this? You really think I did this? I had no choice Enz. I didn't put my name in that Goblet and to you to even suggest that I did is insulting. Lorenzo, you look at me when I'm talking to you!" That stirs something in him and I'm completely horrified by his next words...

"Look at you? How could I look at you? You repell me, how dare you stand there and lie to me, how dare you risk your life and our child for a stupid competition. Do you know what sort of mother that makes you?!" He spat, the words ripping right through me as I try and process them. I could kill him, but before I get the chance Draco launches himself at his best friend.

"You dare talk to her like that, you dare question her commitment to Arabelle!" He roars as his fist makes contact with Lorenzo's jaw.

"Get the fuck out Enz!" Draco demands and suddenly it dawns on Enzo what he's just done as he glances at me with guilt written all over his face before he leaves the room.

"Aimie, you can come back out now" I tell her and the door swiftly opens and aimie pulls me into a huge hug, arabelle still in her arms.

"You cannot listen to him Kass, he doesn't know what he's saying. We tried... we tried to reason with him but the stupid git wouldn't listen. We know you didn't put your name in, we know." I feel so weak that we both collapse on the floor and Draco is quick to put his arms around the three of us.

"Draco" I begin but am quickly interrupted by the blonde.

"Look Kass, I'm sorry about hitting him but I just couldn't stand how he was speaking about you." He tries to defend himself, but it's my turn to interrupt.

"Don't apologise, thank you." I let out in a small voice.

I don't know how long we were hurdled together like that, but I'd say a decent while, fortunately it's a Saturday so there's no classes running today.

"I'd say he's probably cooled down enough now, I'd better go find him" I tell them after a while. Standing up and start changing Arabelle into some warmer clothing.

"Are you sure? We can come with you?" Aimie asks, I just close my eyes and shake my head.

"No, it's probably better I go alone, I'll take Ara with me though, she's bound to sweeten him up a bit." I smile as I place the now sleeping child in her carrier. "It'll be fine" I add upon seeing the two send me concerned looks. With that, we split up. I already have a vague idea as to where he'd go. The black lake of course. We've spent so many hours around the lake, shared so many beautiful memories. It's the first place he would go to calm down.

And that's exactly where I find him, throwing rocks and pebbles into the serene looking lake.

"I doubt the Merpeople appreciate that much" I remind him as I take a seat beside him, placing Arabelle down next to me.

"Look Kass, I'm so sorry about what I said, I didn't mean it I swear. You're the best mother to Ara. I was just scared, terrified out of my mind quite frankly. I cannot lose you Kass, I just can't. I wouldn't cope, if you're taken away, Ara might as well have lost two parents. It would destroy me." He admits finally looking at me with nothing but regret in his face, which makes me melt. His pain, is my pain.

"Fortunately, I have no intention of dying anytime soon. I'm way too stubborn to give whoever put my name in the satisfaction." I smile at him but it does little in terms of reassurance.

"You don't repell me either. I am horrible. You're the most beautiful girl in this world, beside Ara. Scars or no scars, I had no right to say that to you. I'll regret it for the rest of my life. I can't deal with the idea of hurting you in such a way. You have to believe when I say Kass you're absolutely perfect." He pleads, but I know however much he apologies for that, there's no erasing the damage its already caused. Nothing can take it back.

"I forgive you, Enz. I'll always forgive you." I say in honestly. I couldn't stay pissed at him, I wasn't capable of it, but I wouldn't forget.

"That's exactly why I don't deserve you, because I don't deserve your love or forgiveness. What I said, it isn't something someone says when they love a person. I do love you, you know. But I am toxic and you deserve so much more. I am unworthy, I cannot love." His words creating a stir within me. He's never admitted to feeling anything toward me other than that I am his best friend. I can't ignore the smile that spreads on my face as he says he loves me.

"Is that why you won't allow yourself to be with me? You think you're unworthy?" I question.

"Not think, love. I know I am not." By his tone I can recognise his reluctance to continue the current conversation so I respect the boundary and change the subject.

"We should go out tomorrow. Have a bit of normality for once, especially before I have to think about the first task. How does that sound? Bit of shopping and a Butterbeer or two, huh?" I playfully nudge him on the shoulder.

"Sounds pretty perfect if you ask me." He agrees. "Look, I'll take Arabelle for the day, go have some time to yourself for once. I fear I don't spend nearly as much time with her as I should." He adds.

I agree, and leave the two to their bonding. I decide that I'm going to spend the day with Aimie, but on my way back I bump into none other than fellow hogwarts champion, Cedric.

"Hello there Kassandra, no little one with you today?" He asks.

"Nope, having some father-daughter time today it seems." I smile. From up close, I can truly appreciate the beauty of the boy in front of me. Incredibly handsome I think. Tall, chiseled with dark hair and bright grey eyes, almost similar to those of Draco. A girls dream.

"I've been given a heads up from Harry about the First task, it's Dragons, that's all I know." He shrugs.

Dragons?! How the fuck am I suppose to fight a dragon? These tasks really aren't for the faint hearted.

"Oh um thanks Ced." I let out, head swarming with the idea of me having to battle a dragon.

"I know this is competition Kass, but I promise you will make it out safe. That child simply adores her mother, and if i have anything to do with it, she'll get you back unharmed." He reassures me, I am taken back by the pure kindness of the boy and with a nod he continues on his way.