The Beautifully Tragic Life of Kassandra Snape

chapter 45- return to Hogwarts

Lorenzo and I have slept with eachother countless of times since and it's allowed us the chance to really enjoy eachothers company and explore the love we share in more depth.

"Love is strange." He states after another one of our hookups.

"Isn't it just." I add as we once again dress ourselves, I always note how he never takes his long sleeve shirt off during our time together. Doesn't he get hot?

"I love you Kass, we have a family together but I don't think we've ever been made for a relationship together." He tell me.

"I know, maybe it's just a physical thing." I shrug "we like the idea of being together, but know we will never quite be enough for eachother. My heart is spilt between you and your best mate and you have a weakness for beautiful girls." I chuckle.

"True. We should probably go or we'll be late for the train." He says and we both apparate with Arabelle to the platform.

"Mumma look its Dray!" She yells as we both spot the blonde as he says goodbye to Narcissa. Without warning the child runs off in their direction, I quick to sprint out after her but she gets to them before I can catch her.

"Dray!" She says as she launches herself at his legs.

"Hello little one. Where's your mummy?" He asks as he crouches down to Arabelle.

"Merlin Draco I'm so sorry, she just ran off the moment she saw you." I apologise to him as I close the remaining distance between us

"Kass, I- it's fine don't worry about it." He tells me, avoiding looking in my direction.

"Goodbye Ara." He tells the child before walking off to board the train.

"Hello darling." Narcissa says to me as I'm watching her son leave. I pick Ara up and balance her on my hip.

"Hi Cissy, what's going on with him? I'm so worried about him." I tell her.

"Look Kassandra, Draco is under unimaginable stress. Be patient with me this year. He thinks he can carry it all on his own but he needs you." She tells me solemnly and I nod before bidding her farewell and we board the train.

The train is quiet on the way there, everyone silently terried with the confirmation of the Dark Lords return. They all seem to appreciate Arabelle though, her innocence as they watch her play and interact with her mummy and daddy, she tries to play with Draco and I'm surprised when he agrees. He could never say no to Arabelle. Someone however, isn't too pleased by her.

"Can you control that damn child!" Pansy shouts to me and I'm about to bite back when Arabelle looks back between me and the horrid girl.

"Pugface?" She questions me and the entire carriage errupts into hysterical laughter as Pansy storms out.

"Yes baby, Pugface." I laugh, clutching at my ribs as I pick her up and onto my lap.

"I wonder who taught her that?" I say seemingly to no one in particular though my eyes immediately land on Draco, although he keeps his head low I can still see the smirk playing on his lips.

It was Dray mummy!" The adorable child exclaims.

Draco's smirk is immediately wipped off his face.

The usual sorting and Dumbledore’s speech commences this year interrupted. I've been allowed to bring Arabelle with me for the ceremony and she was an angel, didn't hear a peap out of her the entire time.

It was about time that my dad was appointed as DADA teacher and I was relieved, knowing we'll have at least one good teacher at last. Our new potions teacher seems sound enough too.

Throughout the entire feast Draco barely touches a thing on his plate, barely even contributing to any conversation. He looks so alone, what could have possibly happen for him to push everyone away like this.

"Mummy, why is Dray sad?" She asks as Lorenzo, Ara and i walk to our usual room as we both hold each of her little hands.

"I don't know baby." I reply, as we are approached by the golden trio.

"Hello Kass, long time no see." The brunette boy states.

I hand Lorenzo my room key "Enz, get Arabelle ready for bed, I'll be in, in a second." I tell him.

"Yes Ma'm." He replies as he picks up his daughter, swinging her in his arms.

"How are you Harry?" I ask, knowing that he had lost his godfather at the battle.

"Not important. Listen Kass, you need to keep Arabelle and yourself away from Draco Malfoy." He tells me.

"What? No. Never. Why would you say such a thing?" I question him, astounded by his command.

"Harry don't" Hermione warns him

"Because I have reason to believe that he's joined Lord Voldemort." He states.

I am lost for words at his implication, he'd never do anything like that. Never, I know Draco better than anyone, he's too pure.

"Stop Harry. You're stupid childhood rivalry with him has to stop. Just because you don't like him and he's in Slytherin doesn't give you the right to judge him like that. Now I'm going to pretend this never happened and go put my daughter to bed. Goodbye Harry." I don't even care to look at his expression and storm into my room, immediately softening when I see Arabelle still awake in my bed.

"I thought she was too big for the cot." Lorenzo tells me as he tucks her in.

"Definitely."

"Well I should probably hit the hay now, goodnight my sweet baby, sweet dreams." He says as he kisses Arabelle and walks over to me.

"And goodnight to you too, love." He says. Kissing me on the top of my head before leaving.

I dress into my pyjamas and crawl into the bed as Arabelle wiggles closer to me.

"Mummy, do you love daddy?" She asks as I rub her head.

"Yes. Mummy loves daddy a lot." I whisper.

"Do you love Dray too?"

"Of course I do baby." I tell her. Merlin she asks a lot of questions, but I am pleased at how perceptive she already is.

"Does Dray love you?"

I think for a while. I wish he did but his letter said he didn't feel for me anymore. Maybe he did once- but not now, he made that very clear

"No baby, Dray doesn't love me." I say sadly, heart breaking at the reminder, the truth.

"Don't worry mummy, I will always love you" she says sleepily before yawning.

"Me too my child, with every fiber of my body." I whisper.

We fall asleep quickly after that, wrapped safely in eachothers arms.