The Beautifully Tragic Life of Kassandra Snape

chapter 59- Arrangements

"You can't keep avoiding the subject forever Enz!" I yell as we have the same argument for about the hundredth time.

"No, Kass I just don't want to think about it anymore." He tells me.

We've constantly argued about this since we arrived at the Manor. I think we need to think about what should happen to Arabelle if we die before the war ends but he refuses to think about it like it.

"Enzo, we still need to ensure that she has someone to look after her. People are dying already, and it's not going to stop until someone wins this war. What are the chances that we'll both make it out alive?" I question him. Seemingly finally getting somewhere with him.

"Draco?" He asks but I shake my head.

"If we're gone, I don't think he'd be capable. He'd be heartbroken, he'd need help."

"What about Aimie and Blaise?" I ask.

"Do you think that they would agree? We turned our backs on them a long while ago." He reminds me.

I haven't seen nor heard from the two since the takeover. Though I hear that they survived.

"I think they would do it for Arabelle. Say Harry wins. They aren't deatheaters, they'll be free to live the rest of their lives undisturbed. I think it's the best bet we have right now, they're familiar and they have always loved her."

"Draco tells me you're planning to leave as soon as you can." He says suddenly.

"We have to Enzo, this is no life for our child. When the time comes, we will be leaving. You can-" come, I would say but I'm cut off.

"I won't, if either Draco or I come they'll be able to find us soon enough, it would be for nothing. I'm selfish Kass. I don't want you to leave but you've always been better at making the hard decisions than me. I won't stop you, I won't come looking for you two. I would never forgive myself for putting you in danger. If you leave Kass, I'll never see you again." He sounds so defeated. I wish it didn't have to come to this, but he's right. If me and Arabelle leave, than we are truly on our own.

"I've always loved you Kassandra. I will always love you, but i never could love you in the way i should." He tells me and he lean in to give eachother a sad, desperate kiss while we share an embrace.

"I love you too Enzo." I tell him and its nothing but the truth. I love him so much but we were never meant to live happily ever after.

"You love him more though don't you?"

All I can do to that is nod.

I knew in my heart long before. Me and Enzo were never meant to be together, we love eachother but in the wrong ways, we are more blinded by our infatuation.

It might not have been the easiest decision, but it was always him.