The Beautifully Tragic Life of Kassandra Snape

chapter 58- Apology

I'm in my room, playing with Arabelle when there's a knock at the door, i stand and catiously make my way to the door.

"Who is it?" I ask.

"Mum." She states. I haven't seen her since the castle was taken, haven't even spoken to her since the battle at the ministry, where she had saved my life.

I open the door and allow her to walk into the room.

"Who is that mummy?" Arabelle asks smiling at the woman.

"I suppose this is your grandmother." I reply.

"I still cannot get over that my baby has her own." She whispers as she keeps her distance from Ara, to which I'm greatful.

"I thought it was the time to talk to you my child. You must have so many questions for me." She says.

I think for a while, I had millions but we haven't got all day so I pick the biggest ones.

"Why did you leave?" I ask, voice steadied, despite the emotion I feel.

"Amycus and I were among the few that had avoided Askaban after the first war. What was I supposed to do? Get a normal job like your father? Work beside Mudbloods- its absurd."

"Did you ever love me?" I ask.

"I did, I think I loved you a lot, I still feel the need to protect you even now. I suppose its a motherly thing. I wasn't made for motherhood though, I don't have the patience for it. I thought of you often though and what you would turn out like. I think that i made the right call leaving you with Serverus."

I nod, but I wasn't ready for motherhood when I had Arabelle either but never did I think of running away from it. I was just 15, it's no excuse.

"And are you pleased by how I've turned out?" I ask.

"Incredibly, from what I've seen and heard you make for one hell of a witch, especially with what you did to the werewolf."

I nod sitting down on the floor to play with Arabelle again.

"I'm sorry." She says and I stare back at her in complete disbelief.

"I'm not entirely heartless you know, I really did love you Selene." She leaves it at that and leaves, shutting the door behind her.

I want to believe her, I really do but I can't put my trust in many people anymore. I know that if Voldemort asked her, she'd probably kill me on the stop to please him. She may be my mother but she'll never be my mum