To Love You More ( SIX)

I feel guilty babe 🥹😳

Saturday October 25 th 2021

** everyone is up and getting ready for the day, they have no plans for today, so it's a pretty chilled Saturday morning, Carina is combing Londyn's hair , Violet and Scarlett are playing together in their indoor playground, Lorenzo is helping maya clean up the house, Alessandro is playing with his trucks and trains in the playroom **

8h39 am
Violet: hiiiii momma , hiiii Londyn !
Carina : good morning vivi ,
Violet: i have a question for youuu but I'll wait until you at least had one cup of coffee first!
Carina: ohhhhhkayyyy , well thank you for waiting.
** she puts Londyn in her high chair **

Maya: ohhhh good morning my lovelies!
Carina: hiiii Bambina! ** she kisses her wife **
Maya: how are you doing today?
Carina: ohhh , my lower back hurts and also my stomach hurts so bad! I don't know what is going on...
Maya: awnnn , it's a good thing we are doing absolutely nothing today huh?
Carina: siiiii ! ** she grabbed a bowl of yogurt and she also made one minute oatmeal and then gave it to her two years old daughter **

Carina: careful baby,, it's hot ! I'll help you okay?
Londyn : ouhhh yayyyy  !

** Violet has now gathered Chloe and Scarlett to see if they wanted to know the answer to her question, they obviously said yes **

Scarlett : we have to wait for a few minutes because momma just woke up !
Chloe: right! Okay... I think it's been a few minutes huh?
Violet: yea I think it has !

**Carina could see that her three older girls were patiently waiting for her to get at least something to eat before they asked her their questions **

Carina: yessss my darlings, what is your question!
Violet: ohhh ummm ! Well in school we are learning about television and what happens behind the scenes and the "never going to air" and it got me thinking, " I wonder why do some scenes don't actually make it into the show"

Maya: uhhhh excellent question vivi, im not an expert on the subject but I would think it's because some scenes are too long, too short , or the acting needed to be umm, or the lighting was not perfect somewhere in the scene it really depends on a multitude of things bella
Scarlett : Huh , that makes more sense! Okay thank you mommy!
Maya; you are welcome! Babe, what are you thinking about?
Carina: huh ... oh ahhh , I still can't shake my head around the fact that yesterday could have been waaaaaaay worst then it was and I wouldn't be able to live with myself knowing that I didn't protect my babies , our babies.

** she cried and cried some more **

Londyn : ohhhh ohhhhh momma no more sad ! Nuhhhh nuhhhh ! Mommmmmma!

**Maya came to hug Carina from behind , Carina had her head in her wife's shoulders**

Carina: I'm fine baby girl, I'm just....
Maya: you came up with the emergency bracelet idea , that IS ACTUALLY GENIUS Bambina! I would never have thought of that! You have to stop guilting yourself okay?
Listen SOUND OFF

LORENZO: ONE
CHLOE: TWO
VIOLET: THREE
SCARLETT : FOUR
ALESSANDRO; FIVE
LONDYN : ixxxx ! See momma we all here !

**she was now playing with her plastic spoon and had some oatmeal and strawberries yogurt all in her beautiful light brown hair with two little ponytail **

Carina: yea I know, but still babe, ever since July 17 th 2007 10h41 am my mind has been " protect your kid and now kids at all cost Carina , it's your responsibility to make sure that they are all equipped with beautiful clothes, food on the table every day and night , a roof over their heads so they never have to worry where the next meal or necessity comes from!"

Maya: yea I know baby, but we're doing exactly that! My love, I know it must of been extremely extremely scary for you receiving my text and completely freeze up looking at your phone.... But it was a wire of some sort and everything is fine!
Carina; siiii it really was babe!  I want you to hold me , I don't feel well.... Can we do nothing, watch tv , and enjoy each other's company and maybe play a few board games together as a family?

Lorenzo: wait why are you freaking out momma?

Everyone: that's an amazing idea momma!

** the youngest all gathered in the games closet and got everything out and brought it to the living room**

Carina: oh right he doesn't know...
Uhhh well apparently there was an electrical problem at your siblings elementary school today and mommy was there to help out with the 19 crew but I just feel guilty about it because as parents we are supposed to be protecting our children from any harm ....
Maya: I know babe
Lorenzo: shooot that must of been scary to whiteness! I'm just glad everyone is safe!
Carina: yea me too,
Okay now let's play some games buh ?
Londyn : hrmmmk ! Yea , I on momma's team ! Can I cuddle with you while playing?
Carina: oh of course you can baby girl, I uhhh have some more momma milk too! Come here ** she got a comfortable chair out and she said to put the games on the kitchen table so she could play too , she can't bend down , her back really hurts still **

Scarley : okay which game do we start with?
Maya and Carina: which one do you want to play with , we don't mind !
The kids: uhhh how about mouse trap ?
Carina: okay! ** she was breastfeeding Londyn in the meantime **

Mouse trap it is !

10 h -17 h

The DELUCA Bishop family played
MOUSE TRAP , HUNGRY HUNGRY HIPPO ! DONT STEP ON IT , TWISTER and many more games !

20h38

**Everyone took a bath/ shower, and the kids were all ready for bed ! Carina was in excruciating pain from her lower back... she curled up on the bed , and slowly begins to cry **

Carina: ahhhhhh owwwwww ! Mayaaaaaaaa !
Maya : yea babe?
** she gets out of the bathroom and sees her wife crumble up into a ball crying **

Carina: my back is hurting so bad,
Maya: okay describe your pain to me please!
Carina: it feels like contractions, back labour contractions! Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ! And I've only experienced that once and it was with Alessandro. But now it's also feels like I'm being stabbed in the back.  Perfect please, can you give me a massage or something??
Maya: yes of course I can ! And will !
Carina: okay thank you sooooo much my Bambina!
Maya: it's my pleasure,

** she went back in the bathroom to put her toothbrush away and came back in their bed and she massaged Carina's back until they both fell asleep, which it was around 22h35 **